Just one of those days...

I am feeling one of those moods again. Feeling moody this very moment. I can't find anything to cheer me up so hopefully after pouring it out over here I might feel better. What's causing me to have this emotion? I seriously don't know. Or maybe I subconsciously know it but not willing to explore it. Yes, I am in denial mode now. Well, sue me then. Haha.

This year is the year of 2008. Alot has been happening which causes changes in me. First of all, I am no longer a student and must find a job to support myself. Second, I am a graduate (old already). Third is much sweeter, I found a guy who made me feel wonderful inside and out *winks*.

I like the idea of able to support myself so I do enjoy working. Made me feel independent. I am 22 years old and have no intention on depending on my family (except for emotional support of course). The second was quite emotional for me, I just had my graduation on 6th august which was about a month ago. I looked at all my friends where we were in our graduation robe. I must admit that it did pull some emotional strings inside me as I was looking at them. This is unbelievable. We have been going through uni years together for the past 3 years. Not only in studies but facing life together and helping each other in personal growth. My uni years definitely are the best because of these people. You know who you are out there for making me feel special just by being with you guys. Recently I have spent less time with them and I do miss them. I miss chilling over at Feeza's place, go clubbing with my 'kakis' (Aron , Careen & Zeck), have girl talk sessions with my buddies Eunice & Erica. Sigh..wonder how are they doing now.

Lastly, for the third one...*wicked grin*...I shall save it for next time. By the way, I do feel much better this moment even though my original topic for this piece was not about these. I guess my attention got diverted as I was typing. Haha.

Stressssss~

Aiyor...women studies 3000 word essay to be due on fri. that is like less than 4 days. i have a free day today and what did i end up doing? Eat, sleep, watch tv & read novels, ntg regarding my assignment at all. Sigh... feeling so terrible...but doing ntg to end my procrastination. T-T

I tried to start..but no mood. Furthermore, I dunno where and how to start. Yesterday had a test..its easy but i did badly for it. coz i cant rember my facts.. (more tears). Double sigh...

Goodness..i just sigh and mum (or stepmum to be more specific) scolded me for sighing. She believes that sighing will 'halau' away good luck or good fortune. Wow, she is such a traditionalist. I so do not believe in this custom or value or whatever u call it. Anyways, just annoyed only coz she scold me over such a nonsensical matter. Maybe i used to believe this crap but now...i SO do not.

Back to my sorrows...duno what to say adi. So, i shall save it for next entry.

1st time

Yesterday was the first time i highlighted my hair. i decided that its time for such a change. I am tired of my hairstyle already. Everytime i cut my hair, not much changes is shown unless i cut it short or straighten it. However, i do not suit short hairstyle. i look fatter than i am if i do so or probably emphasize my big face. ahaha. Hair straightening is expensive. I could not afford it. rm 300 on your hair? maybe its alrite for some but I just can't bring myself to spend such a large sum on hair itself. i rather spend it on food, clothes, shoes, books or dvds (pirated) and vcds(orginal). I went with ..hmm..i guess u can say old pal coz i know her since i was 15. Anyhow, me and chianyee went there at about 2 stg. It took us 3 hours to get our hair done. Wow..i can't belive it. It is my first time staying in the saloon for so long. Wel, not really first..coz last time i always waited for mum in the saloon. I was always grumbling why it took her such a long time to be in a saloon. And now, i finally know the answer.

It was a fun and new experience for me. She did trim my hair abit but as usual, it looks the same. No one can tell the difference. The only noticeable thing is my hair color. I guess my dad needs some time gettin used to it. He doesn't really wan me to dye but he still allow me to do whatever i wan to. ^-^ that is wats so cool about him. He does not force his children to do what they do not wan to do. Back to the story, after the 'transformation', both of us decide to sorta celebrate our new look. It had been raining the whole afternoon and thus the weather was superb. We decide to eat roti tisu and have some teh tarik. yum yum. Just by the thought of it made me hungry now (yes, i am a glutton). it was abt 6 pm at that time. We were in high spirits. Chattin and laughing. Later, we headed home.

Get this, at night at about 9pm did i realize that both of us has forgotten to PAY. Gosh!!! I quickly called her up and told her. Both of us din realise this fact. unbelievable. this is the first time both of us eat without paying. ARGHHHH!!! The two of us felt so awful about it. It is not in our nature to take advantages of things. Also, why din the waiters stop us?haha. the whole situation is quite comical.

I love rainy days..i find it really romantic. of coz, running under the rain and gettin wet is hardly romantic to me. i love to enjoy a good book or watch movies and curl up in my room on a rainy day. Its so coolong and relaxing.

Its gettin late. Should get to bed. Have asignments to complete tmr.

Bored till i write

Well..suddenly have the mood to write something. I can just imagine syaf rolling his eyes towards the ceiling and say 'Finally'. *laughs*

I must be crazy to be writting in the middle of the night. I know i know, i should be doing my assignment but i'm lazy. If any of u all dunno by now, let me tell you--I, Jasmine Yeoh is a lazy bum.haha. Man..i am really typing out crap.

I'm in my third year now. How time flies. I cannot believe I am that old already. I have to be mature and serious and all that grow up thingy stuff. But, i do find myself change unintentionally. I guess this is part of growing stage or in my case, maturing stage. The changes just happen whether you want it to or not.

Anyway, i shall not continue with such serious talk. But then what should i talk about?hmm..nah..dun care about it. I shall just talk whatever comes into thsi brilliant mind of mine.haha.It rhymes. I know what you guys must be thinking, 'that is just so lame'.

Sigh..at the end of this sem, a few of my course mates are going to leave their schooling life and step into the real world a.k.a. working stage. Syaf is one of them. I can still remember the time when we become close buddies. How we have change from then till now. But then , everyone has change. The changes are not a bad thing at all. I find us more mature and serious. Wait a minute, why am i talking like an old lady who is seeing her children growing right in front of her eyes? *laughs*

I do love children. I find them cute and interesting and innocent. Their minds are so unpolluted and naive. They do think the world is a beautiful place. So positive about everything. As we grow older, we tend to lose all that and become realists. We believe that the world is a harsh and no-nonsense place. You have to be hard hearted to be able to make a stand in the business world. Even though I am becoming very realistic, i try to think more about the good than the bad. Try to be more positive anfd have more faith in people. Thinking positive definitely maskers me feel better and alsp a better person. I hope i will not change all these naive characteristics. I do not want to be always thinking about the worst of people and be cautious. Life is already hard enough, with this, it will make it ever the more depressing. Do not misunderstand me by thinking i want rainbows and unicorns in my 'world', i don't. I just wish everyone can treat each other sincerely.

haha. and that will be the end of my crapping session. Thank you fo your precious time. =p

Too angry for words..then too sad pulak

While I am typing here, i am feeling a mixture of anger and sadness. Lets talk about the anger first, my 13-year old brother makde me so angry. What causes my anger to erupt is a small issue but I guess all the frustration I have inside of me just break out. I just ask him to help me to complete a small task and he refuse to do it. Everytime I asked him for help he refused to help me out and just choose to ignore my words. Sigh..You may think its a small matter but what makes me even angrier (is there such a word?) is that even after i shouted and tell him how angry I am at him, he just ignore me like he did not heard anything and then later trying to talk to me. Of course I ignore his presence after the argument. I am too angry for words. How can he pretend like nothing happen? Maybe its a boy's trait or something like that.Why can't he just obey some of my pleas. Its not very demanding also.

Now, the anger has switched to sadness. Its always like this, when I am too angry or frustrated, end up i will be sad or even close to tears. I know i know, i am such a weakling rite?haha. I am unable to let out my emotion. I dunno why. I just want to let it all out coz keeping it all inside is not good for your health. That's why i chose to typed it all out. Come to think of ity, i do feel slightly better now after writing it down on here. My brother is so teruk. Did not even pujuk his sister. Maybe i am too unimportant for him. I cant angry at a person for a long time so maybe tomorrow after a good nite rest I will forget all about this incident as usual. I will probably unable to recall the details too. yeap, that's me.

Long time no see

Okay, i know it has been a LONG LONG time since I add in anything to my beloved blog and i also received some complaints from someone. Well, here I am back in action.

Well, what should I say? hmm..yesterday i went to Feeza's place and i had a wonderful time. Its so good to see the gang again. Didn't realize how much i missed them till i saw everyone of them. Its so nice to hear the chatter and voices. Of course i can see how much they misses me with all the compliments, teasing remarks and complaints. I feel so well-loved. haha. I was not spared from all the criticisms. Are u people feeling guilty now? nah..dun sweat about it, i was not offended at all. I know this is your way of saying how much u guys misses me. The food was delicious. I loved it so much!!! I wish i have a bigger empty stomach but unfortunately..i dun have. *sob* I know what you guys will be thinking rite now, 'I never knew Jasmine aka jojo is such a pig '. haha.

Its so sad to see a member of the gang to be leaving for auzzie though. I will miss u so much Kavita. Actually, i am already missing u. Classes will be a bore and a drag without you. Life in uni will also will not be half as fun without you around to spice it up. No matter what, do take care my dear friend. Do not forget me yar. hehe.

As i am typing here, i am actually feeling not very happy. I have some problems which i have no idea how to solve it. But thanks for you guys who feel concerned about me right now. You guys needn't worry about me. I will be fine. =)

Till we meet again~

One month Anniversary

I can't believe it. I have got my own blog for exactly one month today. Will celebrate thsi one moth anniversary by doing nothing about it.heehee.=P

Another week..gone

Time really flies when you are enjoying urself. This is my second week of holiday..wish that it won't flew by so quickly. I get to blog now as my 13 year-old cousin is having his dinner (fried rice.yummy. ate it just now before him) and my other cuz is sleeping. Yay yay. i got to use the computer for a short moment.

I am back at my uncle's house. I went back to my home on wed then i came here again on sun. Holiday mah..so i have to visit grandmama more often. Do not waste the time & opportunity.
[Lil cousin has finish his dinner & demanding to use the comp but after i plead him with my puppy-ish doleful looking eyes, he relents. So i get to use the comp.Victory!!]
So anyway, i have been busy thses few days. I was pretty bored on Monday. Then during dinner, my 2nd uncle asked me about the new James Bond movie & if i had watched it. Guys love action flicks & my uncles are no different. Anyway, after our dinner my 3rd uncle came home. The elder brother decide to play a joke on his lil bro & the moment 3rd uncle walk into the house, my 2nd uncle asked him if he wants to watch Casino Royale as he has the tickets. haha. You should have seen my uncle's face. He was looking terribly tired when he walks in but the moment he thought he got to watch the movie right away, he looks wide awake in an instant. What a mean prank. I have no participation in this( I swear). I guess that no matter how old u are, older siblings will still love to tease their younger siblings. We managed to get the tickets which is shown at 9.30pm. My first time watching a sorta late movie. hehe. Oh..the movie was..okay. Quite enjoyable though i think Pierce Brosnan was a better looking james Bond than him. But..we must be open up to changes, thats why i can still accept the new 007.

Tuesday I brought my granny to visit her sister. I'd never been to that great aunt's house before. I seldom see her too. Its nice to see both sisters catching up.=) But what caught most of my attention the whole afternoon is the almost 3 months old baby boy. He is so CUTE!!! Simply ADORABLE!!! Can't pull my eyes off him the whole afternoon. I love babies. I am still thinking about that baby cousin of mine at this moment. He is so cute. Wait..i think i had mentioned that.oops. But its the truth & i will keep on saying that.haha.

Today my day was none too good. A stupid bike hit my car. He scratched my 'darling' (which is my car) & he has the nerve to scold me. Cis!!I am so mad now. I went to report to the police just now. Got a saman..man..By law i am wrong but according to the truth, that motorcyclist is WRONG!!! i have 2 eye witnesses -my grandma & my cousin brother(the older one). But..what can I do? This has taught me a lesson. Beware of MOTORCYCLIST. No matter who knock who, the law favours the motorcyclist. The owner of the car will always be the one who is wrong. sigh.

Holiday...!!!

Exams over.Finally. Another semester has gone. Another year has passed by. When the semester starts, i will be a THIRD year. Gosh. How time flies.. I still remember the first day i was in uni. Was clueless and blur. of coz i have changed. ;) But I shall put all that aside for now & enjoy my 3 months holidays. have been waiting for it a long time.haha.

am now in my uncle's house. Staying with my 2 lil cousin bros(actually they are not so lil, both are grown up). have nothing to do. bored. TV needs repairing. dont have my comp ( i am able to use it now as both of them are sleeping). if they are awake, the will be hogging (or fighting over) the computer. They do not care about their poor cousin sis at all. *sob*

Its great to be back here in my uncle's home. I didn't see my uncles, aunties, cousins & granny for a long long time. I miss all of them alot, especially my granny's cooking but now since i am back, my gran cooks my favourite food at all three meals. yes, i am spoiled once i am staying over here. heehee.

i decide to spent some quality time with grandma while i am staying over. So this morning i got up at 6 stg to accompany granny to pasar. Its really difficult to wake up..i still want to continue sleeping in the cooling room & soft bed..but since i had made a promise to myself, i have no choice but to force myself to be awake. I love going to the pasar. Bought alot of food. So yummy. Burnt a hole in my pocket.

okay, my cousin bros are awake & they are fighting now. so noisy. disturbing me here. but i dont mind at all. one is 18 years old & the other is 13, yet they always fight & argue. Its very amusing to me. Love every inch of them though.ahaha.here they are arguing again. the youngest ask me to defend him but..no way.i do not want to get involve in it. Both of them should grow up.=P

Since they are awake, i must pass them the comp already. will update again. =)

-The Beginning-

Ok, the reason i am creating a blog on bogspot is because i dislike the fact that whenever i posted something on my friendster blog, all my friends will recieve an email which announced the fact that i posted a post. i really don't want everyone to know that. I don't want to be the center of attention thus, this page is being created.

I am very lazy to type and don't really like to blog but end up i created a new blog?? i am so weird. Or am i following the crowd since most of my friends are into blogging. I don't know. That is yet for me to discover.