Monday, March 04, 2013

I can't sleep

It's almost 3.30am in the morning yet I can't sleep. I was sleepy before that but right now I am not. Reason why is because Kelantan wanna take a break from us. Not too long but it's not short either. You don't have to take a guess for I will tell you. It is 3 weeks. 3 long weeks. I know time will pass by very fast but..to me it's not easy either. He is my good friend and we chat on a daily basis whether it is via gchat or whatsapp. Now, to not communicate with him will be awfully difficult but I must do it.
Silly me. As I am typing now I am tearing. Really feel like crying right now. I am very sad. It hurts. I wish I can do something to lessen the pain but I can't. So what I can do now is hope that time can lessen the pain.
I know what be proposed is a good idea. Have I not been suggesting that over and over again for the past 30 times? But to actually do it..is so much harder than I anticipated.
I wish I don't have to work later because I sure wont have the mood to work. I will be so sleepy....
A part of me is angry at him for imposing this upon us but another part, agrees the fact that he needs to do some soul searching. Tell you something, he has changed. He is no longer the sweet ol' friend I know. He is now irritated easily, agitated, frustrated easily and more often than not lose his temper at me. So..what I am trying to justify here is that this move could be the best for me and him.
Ok, I'm starting to feel slightly sleepy. Good for me. Sleep off the misery and hope that Monday will be a good day for me. :)

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