Wow~ Half a year has gone by. Today is the start of the 2nd half of the year. Lets just say the 1st half year is ..dramatic, emotional and..I will not trade anything for it. hehe. So much has happened for the past 6 months. So much memories...and I love every part of it. Even if those incidents that happened are bad or heart-wrenching.
I am so lazy to type out my thoughts right now. I just want to lie on the bed and laze around. haha. Ok, let me do this briefly.
Hmm..lets see. I shall start with..I miss my small bear in the car. Every morning while driving to work, I miss the feel of it on my hands. Today is the same as any other day. I wish I can hug my bear. Just now while driving back home, i miss it even more because its late at night and I tend to feel vulnerable when its late at night. I will feel much more comforted if I have something to hold. I am now contemplating should I put the bear back in my car? If I put, it will be like a sign of weakness for me coz I will depend on the bear emotionally in some way. In example, now I am trying to be brave, daring and independent. If get lost already or driving in the dark, I will pull myself together and drive myself to the destination. But if I have the bear with me, I will tend to hug it and be scared and..I will not be able to toughen myself up. Do you get what I mean? Well...if you dun then I also dun wan to further explain coz I am so dead lazy right now to eleaborate further. Hmm..Should I or should I not? Part of me wants to but another part of me..dun wan to admit defeat (as in I want to be independent). Ok, this I shall think further later.
Today my day was okay. Drove to media agencies and discuss some things with them regarding on ads. Good start of the day I would say. Then when I am back to office, its already 12 stg pm. Dominic ajak me to go makan so the 4 of us (me, Dominic, Jason and this new guy Wai Loon) went to eat ban mee. I had spinach ban mee. The taste ok la but I still dun feel full. Dunno why. Must be because I did not have breakfast earlier. Apparently this ban mee shop is very famous. Its in Seapark there.
After lunch I felt super lazy. But of coz must continue working lar. I did my work and the next thing I know, its already 5.30pm. Can the time past by any faster? As I am meeting Lydia (my childhood friend of 17 years) at 7.30pm in Jaya 1, I cannot leave office sharp at 5.30pm. I told Dominic this and he teman me to yum cha. So sweet~ hehe. Of coz I happy la. Got one cute guy to accompany me wor. Sumo..he has a nice smile and he makes me laugh. A nice companion to have I would say. Anyway, I was too hungry so I had an early dinner- sweet & sour chicken. Yummy. I was really starving at that time. We chat till about 7.10pm lidat then he went back home to eat while I go upstairs to my desk to pack my stuff. When I walk into the office,Vaijan was still there at her desk. She teased me, asking me "Whats between you and Dominic? I heard that you guys were having tea session together only". haha. Oh my goodness..I clarified that its nothing. Just 2 colleagues yum cha only. I dun wan people to start spreading rumours. Just because a single guy and single girl hang out doesnt mean they are and will be together right?
Tell you another coincident thing. While waiting for Dominic and the rest to come down to office lobby during lunch time, I bump into Pooi Yarn at lobby. Then during yum cha after work, I bump into her at the restaurant. haha. Very coincident right? I miss that girl. Tomorrow she will be on leave. Thursday I only go to her desk there to kacau her. heehee. Aron is off for the whole week so I will not be seeing him the entire week. Less people to kacau this week.
Back to my story, while I was about to turn off my pc. Agnes (LCW's ex) send me an online message and we start chattin online for a short while. Unable to talk much coz I really was rushing off to Jaya 1. We talk about the weather and then she ask me how is my life. I asked her to guess and she replied that I look great and life is good for me. haha. She said I am much happier. I asked her if it is so obvious. She said yup. =) I suppose..life is indeed good for me. Everything seems so much better after I let go of my stubborness. Less emotional too I would say. =) Good for you Jasmine Yeoh!! heehee.
To continue the events of my day, while on my way to Jaya 1, it is BLOODY jam!!! OMG!!! I can kill myself adi. What to do? It was raining heavily at about 4 stg pm thus caused massive jams in all areas. Really can vomit blood. End up I only meet and chat with Lydia and her boyfriend for 30 mins then I have to ciao. I reached there about 8pm and have to leave at 8.35pm. I had Hot Chocolate Strawberry while I was with her. Taste quite nice. Hot choc in a cold day. This is what I call life~ enjoyment~ heehee
Why I have to rush off because I am going to catch a 9pm movie at Tropicana City Mall with Dominic. He has the free tickets to watch "Marmaduke". My 1st time watchin movie with him...Should I feel anything? I can just imagine what LCW will ask at this moment.."So isit very nice to watch with your leng cai? Got hold hands onot? Never? Why wor? You can go hold his hands mar". LCW is always so cute and funny!! haha.
The movie was..lame. I will not pay money to watch it nor will I spend $$ on the DVD. No way man. Its funny at some part but its more towards lameness and the plot is so predictable.
After the movie I balik rumah. Before that, I felt hungry and told that to Dominic. I hope he will not feel I am a greedy pig. =p He said he can teman me makan if I want. I did thought about it but..I am scared I will get fat! haha..but if I eat with him, then can spend more time with him lor..I was contemplating then I made a decision. Go home. If its the old me, I would have come up with many excuses just to hang out with him just like how I came up with excuses to hang out with LCW in the past back in Digi days. Those days are gone. Even though I am indeed hungry and wish to spend more time with him, I want to go home. I need my rest. Not to mentioned that I gotta spend some time blogging my thoughts which will delay my sleepin time.
Nah..he is just a friend to me. Nothing more for now. Let the time tell on how things will turn out in future. For now, I just want to enjoy my life and be happy. Let nature takes its course. Besides that, I am not ready for anything yet. Heart broken once and its still healing. My heart unable to open up to anyone at this moment. How can I when I still think of LCW most of the time? When I accept a new guy in my life, I want to make sure that in my heart, there is only him and no one else. =)
Ok, finish typing adi. Now I gonna brush my teeth and head straight to bed. Tmr is a big day for me. Gonna meet client. Lets just hope she will be interested to advertise in my magazines. Wish me luck!
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