Wednesday is gone. 2 more days till weekend. Woo-hoo!

As usual, I am very sleepy and lazy right now. I read my previous posts and found that each post has the same opening "I am tired. I am sleepy. I am lazy". haha. This is getting repetitive.

Ok, lets start. My day was pretty ok. This morning could not decide what to wear. I looked at my wardrobe and found that I have nothing to wear. Yup, its one of those days. So..I was abit late to work. Luckily I arrived before my boss did. But still..I feel paiseh. Must wake up earlier from now on. I will not allow myself to snooze my alarm. =p (as if that is possible)

Anyway, I drove to Kota Damansara to meet a client. I tell you, the journey there is even longer than our acquaintance. I saw her for less than 10 mins while the driving journey takes up about 40 mins of my time. Aiyor..Later, I had lunch with 3 of my Guocera ex-colleagues- Angel, Wee and Swee Khim. We went to makan at 6 to 10. I had Fish & chips while they have nasi lemak.

After such a heavy carbo meal, I was so sleepy and lazy when bec in the office. I felt like a zombie. I cannot concentrate on what I was doing. Somehow..the time just past by without me realizing it. Its not like I did alot of things but somehow time just past by lidat.

I was suppose to meet Navina and Lay Sim and also Nicky for dinner today in SS15. Manatau at 5pm, my colleague say she cannot attend Tai Thong's dinner (client's dinner) so I am to attend it lor. Representing The Star mar. Sheesh..I have to call and cancelled my dinner plan. T_T Its so difficult to gather everyone to have a dinner and now have to call each one to tell them its off. Sigh..what to do. Furthermore, no one to accompany me. I ask a few of my colleagues but all also busy. Luckily for this sweet colleague of mine, she is willing to accompany me coz she says I look so kesian and indeed I am. *jasmine showing her face which has a natural kesian look on it*

We left office at about 6.45pm. It was so jam!!! I know I should biasa adi but it really get on my nerves. Reached the destination which is in Subang at about 7.40pm. Crazy! But then..I got chianyee and dominic to keep me occupied abit with their messages during the journey so its abt more bearable. While stuck in the jam, suddenly it rained! Heavily somemore. Oh my goodness. Its terrible. I miss my bear bear la. My hands felt so empty. Ok, i already decided. I shall dig the small bear out from my closet and place it bec in the car to keep me company. I will be fine with it. I already think it through and realized..even if I put it there in the car, its not a sign of weakness. It doesn't mean that I still cling on to my past love. Nope..its not. =)

Lets proceed to the dinner. Let me tell you..its FANTASTIC!!! Food and environment is awesome!!! Great! The emcees and singers are superb. Its so entertaining. I want to take pictures of each of the dishes I had but I was shy. You know la..I am representing my company wor so I must act maturely. Snapping pics of food is kinda childish. Haha. But its still sad case. Guess who I bump into there? My Uncle Tony and his wife. Goodness..what a small world. Rupanya he work under TT Resources too. Both of us are surprise to see each other. haha.

During the dinner, dominic keep me entertained by messaging me. He told me he will keep me company untill the dinner ends. By 10 stg pm, I ask him to go sleep lor but he said a promise is a promise hence he will accompany me till I reach home. Thats really sweet of him and thank goodness he did sms me throughout the whole nite. If not, I would have been quite bored. I mean..food and environment is great but then hor...no one to talk to. I am now wondering..are we both flirting with each other? I dunno la..Ok, I shall not think much into this because its pointless and waste of time. I should be thinking on..how to not miss lcw at all. haha.

I was in a good mood when I reach home at about 11pm. After a hot and relaxing bath, I dunno why but I was tempted to call him (who else). And guess what..I wasnt able to resist the temptation and I called him. We chat for about 35 mins. Wow~ I was very surprised. It was he who said he is tired then only we end the call. Actually..its..sorta nice to chat with him I guess. But hor..he sound really distant and cold..I know he is tired la but then..things already changed between us so..maybe he is scared that by talkin nicely to me, I will fall for him again or I will want to be with him again. Well..honestly...he dun have to worry about that. I will not do that anymore. I just want to be friends with him. Kesian that fella. Work is always so stressful. No wonder he is unhappy la. I wonder what can ever make him happy ar? That one he himself only knows. You know what..I still feel 'sum tung' for him. Wish there is some thing that I can do to cheer him up. Who say I have to be a gf then only can cheer another person up. As a friend cannot meh? ;)

Its nice to hear his voice albeit its cold and distance and also..can feel he is unwilling to talk to me. But then hor..knowing him..if he reli dun feel like talkin to me, he wud not have picked up the call in the 1st place. =) So Jasmine Yeoh, you have to work on this bad characteristic of yours which is..u r too sensitive and you over-think things. Small matter also you can think yang bukan-bukan. Remember that this is also one of the reason that lead you to break up. Must remember ya!!

Back then, I would have felt so hurt if he spoke to me lidat or if he wants to end the call but now..lets just say..I dun anymore. I see it now that..he is really tired hence dun feel like talking. Its not because he dun wan to talk to me but because he is not in the mood for anythin now. He just want to be alone in his own world. However, he did said something which is supposed to hurt my feelings. Last Sunday, I did asked if wanna meet up on Thursday for dinner. He said not sure but he will check on it. Just now I asked this question and he mentioned he will be busy with work. I said I can wait for him and guess what he replied.. He said " I dun feel like seeing you". Whoa~ *piang piang* I kena shoot by him man..so kesian. Nevermind lor. He dun wan to meet me..its ok geh although I feel slightly disappointed. Isit coz he scared that I will show tender feelings towards him? That I will declare my undying love to him? haha..oh my gosh..then I must clarify lor. Must convince him that it will not happen. Loving him..doesnt mean that I want to be with him. Thats what he has been trying to tell me for the past few months and now I am slowly getting there. Jiayou Jasmine Yeoh! ^__^ You can do it babe!! But still hor..feel hurt leh when somebody said it to your face that he/she dun wan to see you. Haih.

So tmr I dun have any plans..then after work I will just go home and relax..good also. I can finally go home and take a rest instead of rushing here and there like mad. haha. That lcw ar..say tired and wanna sleep but still continuing online and 'kau lui'. U see ar..he can comment on Agnes punya post but he never once commented on mine. Why ar? This guy is so ....ish!!! Nah..not pissed off. Dunno what to say. LOL. So I shall not say nor shall I think also. Waste of my time and energy. I shall use the time and energy to think of something more worthwhile. *winks*

Finally, I am off to bed. Kena harass by my friend dominic there. Saying if he feels tired at work tmr it will be all my fault. As if its my fault. Its not like he is staying online to accompany me. Nite nite the world!! May the world seems better when I open my eyes. ^_^