Friday (14th May 2010)

Yay!! Its Friday and this means casual wear at work today for me. If I can wear casual to work, i would love to wear my jeans. hehe.I mean..it will not be casual anymore if I wear dresses or skirts coz thats what I wear usually on workin days. I want my casual day to be different than the normal days. ^__^

This mornin is one of those days where I open my wardrobe and stare at it for 5 mins without able to find anything to wear. I alfready woke up later than usual and now I am wasting 10 mins of my time trying to search for something to wear. haha.

I finally chose my outfit. Jeans of coz but the top..I chose this blue spaghetti top with a lavender cardigan. When I wore this outfit, it reminded me of the day (3rd day of CNY) where I bump into my ex with his female best friend in pyramid. Lets just say this outfit does brings back memories. Is it a good thing or bad thing I dunno and I don't want to dwell on it.

Anyway, my day was ok. Morning I followed my colleague to an agency in Damansara Perdana. The staff in the agency are nice and friendly people. Then when I reach office, its time for lunch. I join Pei Wen, V Ming and Crawford to Tropicana City Mall and had Ninja Pork Burger for a meal. Its not enough for me due to the fact that I am a greedy girl. =P I walk over to Daily Fresh and ordered peanut butter + strawberry waffle as dessert. My favourite combination. Its not as yummy as the stall in SS2. One day I must go to SS2 and buy the delicious waffles again. Hope its still there. Many years has passed since I last visit that stall. Its right in front of Babyland. Not forgettin to mention that I bought Durian Egg tarts to try too and it is yummy!

After lunch, I feel so sleepy, heavy and lazy. I checked my mails then drove over to Damansara Heights to another agency to pass some magazines to her. Later me and my colleague, Genevia went to National Art Gallery (her car but I drove). We got lost and end up at KLCC, the at Concorde..haha. Called Crawford and luckily got his directions we only able to find our way. We help the circulation people and also marketing staff to pack for the Kuntum-McD colouring competition which is to be held tomorrow (15th May 2010). There are 4000 goodie bags to be packed. OMG. When we left at 7.30pm, there is another 1000 goodie bag yet to be packed. Me and Genevia have to go back to office already as we have unfinished work to attend to. Both of us dunno the roads well so another colleague guide us back. That was very kind and sweet of him.

After back in office, I am seriously tired adi because I have been driving almost the whole day. Yes, driving back to office also is me. Its a nice feeling to be the driver coz u feel in control. Yeap, I used to love to be the passenger rather than the driver but now..things have changed. Continue with my story, after back to office I check my mails and also facebook. I saw Lee Chern Wah online. I was very surprised because it is already near to 8pm. Me wonder he was in office or at home. I unable to resist the urge to send a message to him via FB. As I predicted, he did not reply me. Its nothing unusual about that. It is just what I expected. I guess you can say I know him well enough to some extent.

I click and view his page too in FB. I thought I can deal with it but..I am not strong as I lead myself to believe. I was surprised to find out that he actualy slept at 4 stg in the morning? Why? He stated he was emo-ing and missing someone. Could the person be me? Dare I to be hopeful? I have no idea. Of course I would like to know the answer but I will never ever find out. If he really misses me and wants me, he will contact me. I am trying to brush all these hopeful thoughts aside. I am not goin to force myself to let go or forget him because it ain't easy when you love someone with all of your heart. I am just going to let everything flow naturally. =)

I saw his best friend's Pei Yin's wall post. Apparently they are going to have some makan session. Well, I felt something in my chest and it is not a nice feeling. I believe I can label it as jealousy. Yar..I do admit that I am jealous she gets to hang out with him while..him not wanting to see me anymore. Sigh..I am not going to think anymore on this. In actual fact, who he wants to see is none of my business at all anymore so I should not care. Honestly..as long as he is happy, then I will be. I still care for that guy alot. I am worry about him and wish to know if he is ok. So what if its none of my problem anymore, that doesn't mean I will stop caring him. I will be damn hurt if he ever date another girl but I will keep on telling myself...his happiness is what that matters.

Ok, back to the topic. After that at about 8 stg I drove to Subang Parade to meet the gang. TGIF again. I am actually kind of bored of TGIF coz I just went there on Wednesday! Today go again and the price ain't cheap at all.

I am gonna hit the sack. As much as I would love to continue expressing out my thoughts, my brain is not fully functioning. I need to sleep now if I have to be awake at 5.30 am. Why? Gotta attend the coloring competition which I gotta be there at 7am.

Before I go..let me say..I miss you dear. I really really do. I wish I can still communicate with you but ..I know you will not respond to me. That is really sad. What we had together is memang beautiful. I dun wish that to be thrown away. All these good memories I shall forever keep in my mind. I am so happy that in your heart there is me. =) I know you still love me despite what you said. I am also very happy that you actually thought of me..