Stressssss~

Aiyor...women studies 3000 word essay to be due on fri. that is like less than 4 days. i have a free day today and what did i end up doing? Eat, sleep, watch tv & read novels, ntg regarding my assignment at all. Sigh... feeling so terrible...but doing ntg to end my procrastination. T-T

I tried to start..but no mood. Furthermore, I dunno where and how to start. Yesterday had a test..its easy but i did badly for it. coz i cant rember my facts.. (more tears). Double sigh...

Goodness..i just sigh and mum (or stepmum to be more specific) scolded me for sighing. She believes that sighing will 'halau' away good luck or good fortune. Wow, she is such a traditionalist. I so do not believe in this custom or value or whatever u call it. Anyways, just annoyed only coz she scold me over such a nonsensical matter. Maybe i used to believe this crap but now...i SO do not.

Back to my sorrows...duno what to say adi. So, i shall save it for next entry.

1st time

Yesterday was the first time i highlighted my hair. i decided that its time for such a change. I am tired of my hairstyle already. Everytime i cut my hair, not much changes is shown unless i cut it short or straighten it. However, i do not suit short hairstyle. i look fatter than i am if i do so or probably emphasize my big face. ahaha. Hair straightening is expensive. I could not afford it. rm 300 on your hair? maybe its alrite for some but I just can't bring myself to spend such a large sum on hair itself. i rather spend it on food, clothes, shoes, books or dvds (pirated) and vcds(orginal). I went with ..hmm..i guess u can say old pal coz i know her since i was 15. Anyhow, me and chianyee went there at about 2 stg. It took us 3 hours to get our hair done. Wow..i can't belive it. It is my first time staying in the saloon for so long. Wel, not really first..coz last time i always waited for mum in the saloon. I was always grumbling why it took her such a long time to be in a saloon. And now, i finally know the answer.

It was a fun and new experience for me. She did trim my hair abit but as usual, it looks the same. No one can tell the difference. The only noticeable thing is my hair color. I guess my dad needs some time gettin used to it. He doesn't really wan me to dye but he still allow me to do whatever i wan to. ^-^ that is wats so cool about him. He does not force his children to do what they do not wan to do. Back to the story, after the 'transformation', both of us decide to sorta celebrate our new look. It had been raining the whole afternoon and thus the weather was superb. We decide to eat roti tisu and have some teh tarik. yum yum. Just by the thought of it made me hungry now (yes, i am a glutton). it was abt 6 pm at that time. We were in high spirits. Chattin and laughing. Later, we headed home.

Get this, at night at about 9pm did i realize that both of us has forgotten to PAY. Gosh!!! I quickly called her up and told her. Both of us din realise this fact. unbelievable. this is the first time both of us eat without paying. ARGHHHH!!! The two of us felt so awful about it. It is not in our nature to take advantages of things. Also, why din the waiters stop us?haha. the whole situation is quite comical.

I love rainy days..i find it really romantic. of coz, running under the rain and gettin wet is hardly romantic to me. i love to enjoy a good book or watch movies and curl up in my room on a rainy day. Its so coolong and relaxing.

Its gettin late. Should get to bed. Have asignments to complete tmr.

Bored till i write

Well..suddenly have the mood to write something. I can just imagine syaf rolling his eyes towards the ceiling and say 'Finally'. *laughs*

I must be crazy to be writting in the middle of the night. I know i know, i should be doing my assignment but i'm lazy. If any of u all dunno by now, let me tell you--I, Jasmine Yeoh is a lazy bum.haha. Man..i am really typing out crap.

I'm in my third year now. How time flies. I cannot believe I am that old already. I have to be mature and serious and all that grow up thingy stuff. But, i do find myself change unintentionally. I guess this is part of growing stage or in my case, maturing stage. The changes just happen whether you want it to or not.

Anyway, i shall not continue with such serious talk. But then what should i talk about?hmm..nah..dun care about it. I shall just talk whatever comes into thsi brilliant mind of mine.haha.It rhymes. I know what you guys must be thinking, 'that is just so lame'.

Sigh..at the end of this sem, a few of my course mates are going to leave their schooling life and step into the real world a.k.a. working stage. Syaf is one of them. I can still remember the time when we become close buddies. How we have change from then till now. But then , everyone has change. The changes are not a bad thing at all. I find us more mature and serious. Wait a minute, why am i talking like an old lady who is seeing her children growing right in front of her eyes? *laughs*

I do love children. I find them cute and interesting and innocent. Their minds are so unpolluted and naive. They do think the world is a beautiful place. So positive about everything. As we grow older, we tend to lose all that and become realists. We believe that the world is a harsh and no-nonsense place. You have to be hard hearted to be able to make a stand in the business world. Even though I am becoming very realistic, i try to think more about the good than the bad. Try to be more positive anfd have more faith in people. Thinking positive definitely maskers me feel better and alsp a better person. I hope i will not change all these naive characteristics. I do not want to be always thinking about the worst of people and be cautious. Life is already hard enough, with this, it will make it ever the more depressing. Do not misunderstand me by thinking i want rainbows and unicorns in my 'world', i don't. I just wish everyone can treat each other sincerely.

haha. and that will be the end of my crapping session. Thank you fo your precious time. =p

Too angry for words..then too sad pulak

While I am typing here, i am feeling a mixture of anger and sadness. Lets talk about the anger first, my 13-year old brother makde me so angry. What causes my anger to erupt is a small issue but I guess all the frustration I have inside of me just break out. I just ask him to help me to complete a small task and he refuse to do it. Everytime I asked him for help he refused to help me out and just choose to ignore my words. Sigh..You may think its a small matter but what makes me even angrier (is there such a word?) is that even after i shouted and tell him how angry I am at him, he just ignore me like he did not heard anything and then later trying to talk to me. Of course I ignore his presence after the argument. I am too angry for words. How can he pretend like nothing happen? Maybe its a boy's trait or something like that.Why can't he just obey some of my pleas. Its not very demanding also.

Now, the anger has switched to sadness. Its always like this, when I am too angry or frustrated, end up i will be sad or even close to tears. I know i know, i am such a weakling rite?haha. I am unable to let out my emotion. I dunno why. I just want to let it all out coz keeping it all inside is not good for your health. That's why i chose to typed it all out. Come to think of ity, i do feel slightly better now after writing it down on here. My brother is so teruk. Did not even pujuk his sister. Maybe i am too unimportant for him. I cant angry at a person for a long time so maybe tomorrow after a good nite rest I will forget all about this incident as usual. I will probably unable to recall the details too. yeap, that's me.

Long time no see

Okay, i know it has been a LONG LONG time since I add in anything to my beloved blog and i also received some complaints from someone. Well, here I am back in action.

Well, what should I say? hmm..yesterday i went to Feeza's place and i had a wonderful time. Its so good to see the gang again. Didn't realize how much i missed them till i saw everyone of them. Its so nice to hear the chatter and voices. Of course i can see how much they misses me with all the compliments, teasing remarks and complaints. I feel so well-loved. haha. I was not spared from all the criticisms. Are u people feeling guilty now? nah..dun sweat about it, i was not offended at all. I know this is your way of saying how much u guys misses me. The food was delicious. I loved it so much!!! I wish i have a bigger empty stomach but unfortunately..i dun have. *sob* I know what you guys will be thinking rite now, 'I never knew Jasmine aka jojo is such a pig '. haha.

Its so sad to see a member of the gang to be leaving for auzzie though. I will miss u so much Kavita. Actually, i am already missing u. Classes will be a bore and a drag without you. Life in uni will also will not be half as fun without you around to spice it up. No matter what, do take care my dear friend. Do not forget me yar. hehe.

As i am typing here, i am actually feeling not very happy. I have some problems which i have no idea how to solve it. But thanks for you guys who feel concerned about me right now. You guys needn't worry about me. I will be fine. =)

Till we meet again~