1st time surfing at STARBUCKS

This is the 1st time I bring my new laptop out to public. Am i too showy? Of course NOT coz this is what everyone is doing. However, I am doing this coz NOT because I want to follow the trend. I think it is very convenient to be able to surf outside the comfort of your home. It is a Tuesday nite so not many people here at Taipan Starbucks. My initial intention of coming to this place was to accompany my dear to study for his minor test tomorrow. As you well know, things don't always turn out the way you plan it. End up after he read for about a page or two, he gave up. Maybe I am just too distracting. =p

My bf is so opposing to what I am typing here but since this is my personal blog so he has no say to what I want and feel like typing. I don't care. This is a place where I am free to express my emotions and thoughts.

He has something to say here regarding on my previous comment on him. He claims that if anyone were to read the book he is curently trying to absorb, they will sure feel the same way as him- total BOREDOM. The title of the book is "Analysis for Marketing Planning" by Lehner & Winer.

Sigh..the nite is coming to an end. Next morning have to drive to work again. Correction, more like have to drag myself to work.

Will talk again the next time.

Cheers,

excited girl using her laptop

A brand new beginning

Today is the first day of work at a new workplace. Different environment and different people. I miss my friends back in Digi and also the office. Anyway, the whole day passed by quite fast for me. My brain is bursting because information overloaded. There is still so much i need to learn and I am scared I cannot cope up with it. I know, I must be brave and independent. I must believe in myself. MUST say I CAN DO IT. =)

I am so tired. Will be heading to bed earlier tonight. Miss my boy. Don't know what he is doing now. Wish can hear his voice but my guess will be he is sleeping this very moment. If only I can see him now. It will sure brighten up my day or in this case, I should say no matter what, he brighten up my life. Goodness, I am getting so mushy here. But, this happens when you are in love. Or it could just be me being rather pathetic. Haha. I prefer the former. *winks*

I'm off to bed. Hope tomorrow is a good day.

Worrying too much

It was a beautiful Sunday morning and I cannot sleep peacefully. Maybe there is too much on my mind. I slept at 5am and automatically woke up at 8am. There is definitely something wrong with me. Alot is running in my mind till eventhough I am tired and want to sleep I can't. I can only toss and turn on my cozy bed. Sigh.

Whats on my mind is tomorrow I am starting new job and worry about it. First have to worry about parking, then what to wear, then new job and new environmentt. Not to mention the people there. The issue of 'what to wear' is really stressful. I have to buy pants!!! I only got 1 only. How pathetic is that. Yes, I can wear skirts but I don't have shoes to match it. This is causing me headache. I want to go for shopping but time don't allow me to do so. I have to first visit my grandmother, later in the afternoon my mother and then at night my father. Stressssssss~

I have to buy pants and shoes!!! SHOES!!! PANTS!!!! I dont have the time to buy. I did not want to do this last minute but there was CNY and I was still working in Digi. Headache already. Adding to that is that I only have 3 hours of sleep. Crap...
Hopefully tonight I got time to purchase 1 of the items. Oh yar, I bought 1 black pants yesterday but it needs altering. SEE!!! Addition to my things to do list. 3 things on my list and it is not easily done. Why lar the new company wants me to start work so rush. I did not even have a rest day. Yesterday was my last day in Digi as customer service consultant and then today busy day. Tomorrow start new job. Anyone will also feel stress if they were in my shoes...HELPPPPP!!!!!

Loneliness is happiness

Sigh..one good thing about having an inactive blog is that you can blurt out all your feelings without worrying others might read it. Today is another day I made my boy angry again. Maybe we are too opposites that we have a communication barrier. This is one of the hundreds fights we had. Yes, you are right. ANOTHER fight. I am coming to think that this shall be our weekly routine. How depressing. Will this ever end? Can we ever find a solution to this? Apparently the fights is always because of me. Am i so horrible? I wanted to ask but sure this will be a stupid question to him. Okay, stupid is too strong a word. Silly is more appropriate. I did not intend for our night to end like this but it just happen. I am sorta blur on how this happen! He sure react strongly to whatever I say. Whoa...tension betul.

I am so crapping right here. What to do? I need to find a source of release and writing always makes me feel better. Usually I will write all these private feelings in my diary but ever since i got my *ehem* personal laptop, I fell in love with typing. Haha. I guess this is just an excuse to use my laptop. Anyway, back to my probs. Where was I? Hmm..

Oh yar, if I tell him I am abit blur on the root cause of our argument just now, he sure will feel like killing me. But then, if I don't exactly know the cause, how can i prevent history from repeating itself? But if I do ask, he will be so pissed. Sigh..it is a dilemma. He sure will ask me to think. Crap, this is not easy. Furthermore I am not sure if my 'thinking' is in the right direction. Wanted to call him now but he sure will not pick up my call. Might as well pouring out my heart to my faithful blog.

I was right. I feel much better after typing. I just like to write when I am sad or stress. If I were to write on subjects of the world, I cannot. I ain't a good writer at all and and I am lazy to write. These are my excuses.

I so wanted to talk to you but you will not give me the chance. Saying sorry is not the solution to this. I had apologize too many times till I am ashamed to repeat that to you. Is being with me so stressful? I wanted to curtail my weaknesses but I find myself failing.

Well, thank you for allowing me to crap here. Now I can go to bed peacefully (sort of). If I were to keep all these in my heart, I will get a stroke.

May I have a great day ahead of me which is filled with laughter and happiness. =)