So fast its wednesday already

Its Wednesday night and I want to watch the Spanish match...=( but my home dun have Astro. I thought of going to mamak to watch but a girl alone watching is so dangerous.

This morning I drove to Berjaya Times Square to meet the marketing manager of Papa Johns. Nice lady. I did some research on the roads in Google map but still I got lots. At least I managed to find my way although I am vy late. I mean...30 mins late for my appointment. Luckily she is ok with it. I like that lady. After that I drove back to office, and have lunch with Dominic since he say he wanna teman me. Oh ya..today I wore my new blue dress. I love it. It looks like a baby doll dress but at the same time, reminds me of the starry midnight sky. See adi also makes me happy. ^__^ Few colleagues praised me today although Vaijan comment my dresses are getting shorter or my legs are getting longer. haha. Paiseh leh..I know la that my dress is too short and its not like I have nice legs. haha. Anyway, at least I wore something which makes me feel good.

To continue my day, I went to Food Foundry to have mille crepe again. But this time I chose vanilla flavour. Really yummy. Then after the cake, I decided to have a proper meal so drove to another place and had 'chee cheong fun'. The taste so so lor. The place is at seksyen 17.

Afternoon I stayed in office and do proposals. Dunno why but the time past by so fast. The next thing I know its already 5.30pm. I drove to uncle's house in SS2 to see grandma and also to take the 'ba chang' from her. I only eat one kind of 'ba chang' and also the only ones that made by my grandma which is Nyonya Chang. Since its too rushing for me, I dun have the time to wait for granny to heat it up as I am rushing to seapark there to meet Dominic. Suddenly he is craving for nasi lemak. No doubt the nasi lemak at that place in Seapark is awesome. I told granny I will not have time for dinner but after I munched a few pieces of fried fishballs and fried tofu..I cannot resist the tempation and took a plate and filled it with rice and ikan bilis and fishballs. haha. Yummy betul. I was starving. Grandma so happy to see me eating her cooking.

After that about 6.30pm I meet up with Dominic and at that time I dun have the space in my stomach to contain the delicious nasi lemak (even though I really really want to have a plate of it. Yes, I do know that I am very greedy.=p)

We hangout till 7.45pm then I have to rush for the other round. I am meeting Angela and Emily in Pyramid. We decided on Kim Gary and guess what? I saw Angela had the Korean Noodles and I also want to have a taste of it so I ordered a bowl and I could not finish it. Waste food only. Not only that. I wasted my money too. Sigh...

Ok la..I will be heading to bed now coz I have to wake up at 6.30am. Promised granny I will there in SS2 to collect the ba chang by 7.30am.

Nite !

Tuesday then it will be Wednesday!

Yikes!! Its been so long since I last update. Ok, I shall do a quick and short one here.

Lets talk about my day. I wore this new floral printed dress with my new white cardigan and my new white heels. Feels so good. hehe. My good mood was increased thanks to the compliments received from my colleagues. All also puji me and make me feel so happy. A nice breakfast with my colleagues. Then after that I also had a fantastic lunch..a good choice. I want to eat 'lui cha' but luckily V Ming suggested to eat at Damansara Kim. I never heard of that place and now I know where. Shall visit there again another day. I had my favourite char siew fun!!! Yummy!! It taste so good!

After lunch, I feel sleepy as usual but work still gotta be done. Did some research on the net and then did cold calls to direct client. Speaking of which, tomorrow I gotta head to Papa Johns office in Berjaya Times Square at 11am! I dunno how to go to Times Square. I am such a sad case. Sheesh. I am meeting the makerting personnel for Papa Johns tomorrow. Hope everything goes well. Shall try Google maps 1st thing in the morning.

Anyways, after work about 6.30pm, went to 1 Utama with V Ming and Pei Wen. Oh my goodness. Its so freaking jam. Really trying my patience. Finally at 7.15pm I reached the destination ( V and Pei Wen left office at 5.30pm sharp so they did not face the jam). I am so relieved the moment I reach the car park of 1 Utama. We makan at Chilis and I had the salad la, fajitas and tortilla chips with Salsa. Yummy~ At the same time we also watched the football game..Slovakia vs New Zealand. Ok lor..not that exciting as the next match which is Cote d'Ivoire vs Portugal. Ronaldo is so leng cai. Last time he look so boy boy but now so bergaya adi. So man. My heart melts at the sight of him. *Jasmine sighing at the thought of that manly guy*. Now, this match is interesting lor...Cote damn aggresive wei. Portugal got skill. Not bad.

Because I watched it at Chilis so after the 1st half of the game, we have to ciao adi due to the fact that Chilis will close shop. I rushed back to Taipan and continue watching the game at mamak. I am the only girl watching alone lor..majority are guys. There was a couple there. Thats it. I feel so shy leh. Nevertheless, I need to know the results. Haha. I also dunno since when I am so into this football thingy.

Ok, its almost 1am adi. I shall head to bed and I promise I will update the rest of my days soon.

Thurday just come by like this

Wow~ So fast its Thursday already. Time really flies. Yes..I do realized that I have been mentioning this ALOT lately. Another tagline of mine is.."I am so tired". haha.

Before I start with my post, let me tell you that since last Thursday, I have take out my small bear bear and place it bec in the car (where it belong). Really lor, the bear is ever so comforting to me while I am driving. I should not be so stubborn and kept it in the cupboard just because HE gave it to me. See, now I have the bear again, I feel so much happier. heehee.

Okay, my day went by ok today. I know, I have not been updating my diary/blog lately. I shall do it over the weekend when I am more free. Now I shall just talk about my day. =)

Ok, I was busy chatting and then chat on the phone for more than 30 mins. haha. Now I am too lazy and tired to type. Maybe I shall continue it tomorrow. haha.

Nite nite!

Emo

I was feeling happy in the morning but right now..I am just feeling moody. Maybe I am tired that is why I feel like this. Am also listening to "Need you now" by Lady Antebellum. As I listen to it, I feel even more emo. Yes..while I am listening this..I will be lying if he did not cross my mind. I am suppose to meet him today but I cancelled it. Actually..I really wish to see him. I dunno what happen but right now I am thinking about him and missing him so much. Its one of those days I guess..I keep on having flashbacks. When will this stop? If I continue like this, how am I suppose to move on?

This morning I only told my cousin Ken that I am healing and feeling much better which I really did. I was not lying or faking it. But now..I am down down down. haha. "Jay Sean's "Down" as background music".=p Alright, jokes aside coz Seriousness is coming through. haha. I have no idea why I am being so lame now.

Back to the topic of the hour, the song is playing over and over again. Its as if I cannot get enough of it. I love the lyrics...despicting what I am feeling now (at some point).

Picture perfect memories scattered all around the floor

Reachin' for the phone 'cause I can't fight it anymore

And I wonder if I ever cross your mind

For me it happens all the time

It's a quarter after one, I'm all alone and I need you now

Said I wouldn't call but I lost all control and I need you now

And I don't know how I can do without I just need you now

Another shot of whiskey can't stop looking at the door

Wishing you'd come sweeping in the way you did before

And I wonder if I ever cross your mind

For me it happens all the time

It's a quarter after one, I'm a little drunk and I need you now

Said I wouldn't call but I lost all control and I need you now

And I don't know how I can do withoutI just need you nowwoah woaaah.

Guess I'd rather hurt than feel nothin' at all

It's a quarter after one I'm all alone and I need you now

And I said I wouldn't call but I'm a little drunk and I need you now

And I don't know how I can do without I just need you now

I just need you now (wait)Ooo, baby, I need you now

My favourite part of coz is the one that is highlighted in red. =) For me, memories of you crossing my mind happens all the time. I really need you now and always..

I know I might be hurting someone if the person knows about this. I just cannot help it. Its my emotions. Even though I am really sorry buy I cannot deny what I am feeling. Sigh..

It hurts to not being with you. I miss you and..I wish to see you. To hear your voice. To..be with you..Argh!!! I should not be feeling this nor should I be thinking about this..I am so looking down upon myself..Shame on you Jasmine Yeoh. There is this guy who likes you and wants to be with you. You should give him a chance..not dwelling on the past love.

Ok, I am going crazy. I am actually speaking to myself and giving advice also. Sigh..but I really dunno..I like this guy..nice to be with and fun to talk to but..I just cannot la..I dunno how..I still want 'him' in some ways...omg!!! Jasmine Yeoh is a stupid girl for thinking like this!

Alright..this lunacy ends here. I shall meet Aron and talk to him and hope to be clear headed. I must not allow myself to hurt this new guy for he is so sweet. Honestly..the pain is still here in my heart..I have not healed from the past. What did 'you' did to me that I cannot heal untill now...Sigh..

Wednesday is gone. 2 more days till weekend. Woo-hoo!

As usual, I am very sleepy and lazy right now. I read my previous posts and found that each post has the same opening "I am tired. I am sleepy. I am lazy". haha. This is getting repetitive.

Ok, lets start. My day was pretty ok. This morning could not decide what to wear. I looked at my wardrobe and found that I have nothing to wear. Yup, its one of those days. So..I was abit late to work. Luckily I arrived before my boss did. But still..I feel paiseh. Must wake up earlier from now on. I will not allow myself to snooze my alarm. =p (as if that is possible)

Anyway, I drove to Kota Damansara to meet a client. I tell you, the journey there is even longer than our acquaintance. I saw her for less than 10 mins while the driving journey takes up about 40 mins of my time. Aiyor..Later, I had lunch with 3 of my Guocera ex-colleagues- Angel, Wee and Swee Khim. We went to makan at 6 to 10. I had Fish & chips while they have nasi lemak.

After such a heavy carbo meal, I was so sleepy and lazy when bec in the office. I felt like a zombie. I cannot concentrate on what I was doing. Somehow..the time just past by without me realizing it. Its not like I did alot of things but somehow time just past by lidat.

I was suppose to meet Navina and Lay Sim and also Nicky for dinner today in SS15. Manatau at 5pm, my colleague say she cannot attend Tai Thong's dinner (client's dinner) so I am to attend it lor. Representing The Star mar. Sheesh..I have to call and cancelled my dinner plan. T_T Its so difficult to gather everyone to have a dinner and now have to call each one to tell them its off. Sigh..what to do. Furthermore, no one to accompany me. I ask a few of my colleagues but all also busy. Luckily for this sweet colleague of mine, she is willing to accompany me coz she says I look so kesian and indeed I am. *jasmine showing her face which has a natural kesian look on it*

We left office at about 6.45pm. It was so jam!!! I know I should biasa adi but it really get on my nerves. Reached the destination which is in Subang at about 7.40pm. Crazy! But then..I got chianyee and dominic to keep me occupied abit with their messages during the journey so its abt more bearable. While stuck in the jam, suddenly it rained! Heavily somemore. Oh my goodness. Its terrible. I miss my bear bear la. My hands felt so empty. Ok, i already decided. I shall dig the small bear out from my closet and place it bec in the car to keep me company. I will be fine with it. I already think it through and realized..even if I put it there in the car, its not a sign of weakness. It doesn't mean that I still cling on to my past love. Nope..its not. =)

Lets proceed to the dinner. Let me tell you..its FANTASTIC!!! Food and environment is awesome!!! Great! The emcees and singers are superb. Its so entertaining. I want to take pictures of each of the dishes I had but I was shy. You know la..I am representing my company wor so I must act maturely. Snapping pics of food is kinda childish. Haha. But its still sad case. Guess who I bump into there? My Uncle Tony and his wife. Goodness..what a small world. Rupanya he work under TT Resources too. Both of us are surprise to see each other. haha.

During the dinner, dominic keep me entertained by messaging me. He told me he will keep me company untill the dinner ends. By 10 stg pm, I ask him to go sleep lor but he said a promise is a promise hence he will accompany me till I reach home. Thats really sweet of him and thank goodness he did sms me throughout the whole nite. If not, I would have been quite bored. I mean..food and environment is great but then hor...no one to talk to. I am now wondering..are we both flirting with each other? I dunno la..Ok, I shall not think much into this because its pointless and waste of time. I should be thinking on..how to not miss lcw at all. haha.

I was in a good mood when I reach home at about 11pm. After a hot and relaxing bath, I dunno why but I was tempted to call him (who else). And guess what..I wasnt able to resist the temptation and I called him. We chat for about 35 mins. Wow~ I was very surprised. It was he who said he is tired then only we end the call. Actually..its..sorta nice to chat with him I guess. But hor..he sound really distant and cold..I know he is tired la but then..things already changed between us so..maybe he is scared that by talkin nicely to me, I will fall for him again or I will want to be with him again. Well..honestly...he dun have to worry about that. I will not do that anymore. I just want to be friends with him. Kesian that fella. Work is always so stressful. No wonder he is unhappy la. I wonder what can ever make him happy ar? That one he himself only knows. You know what..I still feel 'sum tung' for him. Wish there is some thing that I can do to cheer him up. Who say I have to be a gf then only can cheer another person up. As a friend cannot meh? ;)

Its nice to hear his voice albeit its cold and distance and also..can feel he is unwilling to talk to me. But then hor..knowing him..if he reli dun feel like talkin to me, he wud not have picked up the call in the 1st place. =) So Jasmine Yeoh, you have to work on this bad characteristic of yours which is..u r too sensitive and you over-think things. Small matter also you can think yang bukan-bukan. Remember that this is also one of the reason that lead you to break up. Must remember ya!!

Back then, I would have felt so hurt if he spoke to me lidat or if he wants to end the call but now..lets just say..I dun anymore. I see it now that..he is really tired hence dun feel like talking. Its not because he dun wan to talk to me but because he is not in the mood for anythin now. He just want to be alone in his own world. However, he did said something which is supposed to hurt my feelings. Last Sunday, I did asked if wanna meet up on Thursday for dinner. He said not sure but he will check on it. Just now I asked this question and he mentioned he will be busy with work. I said I can wait for him and guess what he replied.. He said " I dun feel like seeing you". Whoa~ *piang piang* I kena shoot by him man..so kesian. Nevermind lor. He dun wan to meet me..its ok geh although I feel slightly disappointed. Isit coz he scared that I will show tender feelings towards him? That I will declare my undying love to him? haha..oh my gosh..then I must clarify lor. Must convince him that it will not happen. Loving him..doesnt mean that I want to be with him. Thats what he has been trying to tell me for the past few months and now I am slowly getting there. Jiayou Jasmine Yeoh! ^__^ You can do it babe!! But still hor..feel hurt leh when somebody said it to your face that he/she dun wan to see you. Haih.

So tmr I dun have any plans..then after work I will just go home and relax..good also. I can finally go home and take a rest instead of rushing here and there like mad. haha. That lcw ar..say tired and wanna sleep but still continuing online and 'kau lui'. U see ar..he can comment on Agnes punya post but he never once commented on mine. Why ar? This guy is so ....ish!!! Nah..not pissed off. Dunno what to say. LOL. So I shall not say nor shall I think also. Waste of my time and energy. I shall use the time and energy to think of something more worthwhile. *winks*

Finally, I am off to bed. Kena harass by my friend dominic there. Saying if he feels tired at work tmr it will be all my fault. As if its my fault. Its not like he is staying online to accompany me. Nite nite the world!! May the world seems better when I open my eyes. ^_^

1st of June in the year of 2010

Wow~ Half a year has gone by. Today is the start of the 2nd half of the year. Lets just say the 1st half year is ..dramatic, emotional and..I will not trade anything for it. hehe. So much has happened for the past 6 months. So much memories...and I love every part of it. Even if those incidents that happened are bad or heart-wrenching.

I am so lazy to type out my thoughts right now. I just want to lie on the bed and laze around. haha. Ok, let me do this briefly.

Hmm..lets see. I shall start with..I miss my small bear in the car. Every morning while driving to work, I miss the feel of it on my hands. Today is the same as any other day. I wish I can hug my bear. Just now while driving back home, i miss it even more because its late at night and I tend to feel vulnerable when its late at night. I will feel much more comforted if I have something to hold. I am now contemplating should I put the bear back in my car? If I put, it will be like a sign of weakness for me coz I will depend on the bear emotionally in some way. In example, now I am trying to be brave, daring and independent. If get lost already or driving in the dark, I will pull myself together and drive myself to the destination. But if I have the bear with me, I will tend to hug it and be scared and..I will not be able to toughen myself up. Do you get what I mean? Well...if you dun then I also dun wan to further explain coz I am so dead lazy right now to eleaborate further. Hmm..Should I or should I not? Part of me wants to but another part of me..dun wan to admit defeat (as in I want to be independent). Ok, this I shall think further later.

Today my day was okay. Drove to media agencies and discuss some things with them regarding on ads. Good start of the day I would say. Then when I am back to office, its already 12 stg pm. Dominic ajak me to go makan so the 4 of us (me, Dominic, Jason and this new guy Wai Loon) went to eat ban mee. I had spinach ban mee. The taste ok la but I still dun feel full. Dunno why. Must be because I did not have breakfast earlier. Apparently this ban mee shop is very famous. Its in Seapark there.

After lunch I felt super lazy. But of coz must continue working lar. I did my work and the next thing I know, its already 5.30pm. Can the time past by any faster? As I am meeting Lydia (my childhood friend of 17 years) at 7.30pm in Jaya 1, I cannot leave office sharp at 5.30pm. I told Dominic this and he teman me to yum cha. So sweet~ hehe. Of coz I happy la. Got one cute guy to accompany me wor. Sumo..he has a nice smile and he makes me laugh. A nice companion to have I would say. Anyway, I was too hungry so I had an early dinner- sweet & sour chicken. Yummy. I was really starving at that time. We chat till about 7.10pm lidat then he went back home to eat while I go upstairs to my desk to pack my stuff. When I walk into the office,Vaijan was still there at her desk. She teased me, asking me "Whats between you and Dominic? I heard that you guys were having tea session together only". haha. Oh my goodness..I clarified that its nothing. Just 2 colleagues yum cha only. I dun wan people to start spreading rumours. Just because a single guy and single girl hang out doesnt mean they are and will be together right?

Tell you another coincident thing. While waiting for Dominic and the rest to come down to office lobby during lunch time, I bump into Pooi Yarn at lobby. Then during yum cha after work, I bump into her at the restaurant. haha. Very coincident right? I miss that girl. Tomorrow she will be on leave. Thursday I only go to her desk there to kacau her. heehee. Aron is off for the whole week so I will not be seeing him the entire week. Less people to kacau this week.

Back to my story, while I was about to turn off my pc. Agnes (LCW's ex) send me an online message and we start chattin online for a short while. Unable to talk much coz I really was rushing off to Jaya 1. We talk about the weather and then she ask me how is my life. I asked her to guess and she replied that I look great and life is good for me. haha. She said I am much happier. I asked her if it is so obvious. She said yup. =) I suppose..life is indeed good for me. Everything seems so much better after I let go of my stubborness. Less emotional too I would say. =) Good for you Jasmine Yeoh!! heehee.

To continue the events of my day, while on my way to Jaya 1, it is BLOODY jam!!! OMG!!! I can kill myself adi. What to do? It was raining heavily at about 4 stg pm thus caused massive jams in all areas. Really can vomit blood. End up I only meet and chat with Lydia and her boyfriend for 30 mins then I have to ciao. I reached there about 8pm and have to leave at 8.35pm. I had Hot Chocolate Strawberry while I was with her. Taste quite nice. Hot choc in a cold day. This is what I call life~ enjoyment~ heehee

Why I have to rush off because I am going to catch a 9pm movie at Tropicana City Mall with Dominic. He has the free tickets to watch "Marmaduke". My 1st time watchin movie with him...Should I feel anything? I can just imagine what LCW will ask at this moment.."So isit very nice to watch with your leng cai? Got hold hands onot? Never? Why wor? You can go hold his hands mar". LCW is always so cute and funny!! haha.

The movie was..lame. I will not pay money to watch it nor will I spend $$ on the DVD. No way man. Its funny at some part but its more towards lameness and the plot is so predictable.

After the movie I balik rumah. Before that, I felt hungry and told that to Dominic. I hope he will not feel I am a greedy pig. =p He said he can teman me makan if I want. I did thought about it but..I am scared I will get fat! haha..but if I eat with him, then can spend more time with him lor..I was contemplating then I made a decision. Go home. If its the old me, I would have come up with many excuses just to hang out with him just like how I came up with excuses to hang out with LCW in the past back in Digi days. Those days are gone. Even though I am indeed hungry and wish to spend more time with him, I want to go home. I need my rest. Not to mentioned that I gotta spend some time blogging my thoughts which will delay my sleepin time.

Nah..he is just a friend to me. Nothing more for now. Let the time tell on how things will turn out in future. For now, I just want to enjoy my life and be happy. Let nature takes its course. Besides that, I am not ready for anything yet. Heart broken once and its still healing. My heart unable to open up to anyone at this moment. How can I when I still think of LCW most of the time? When I accept a new guy in my life, I want to make sure that in my heart, there is only him and no one else. =)

Ok, finish typing adi. Now I gonna brush my teeth and head straight to bed. Tmr is a big day for me. Gonna meet client. Lets just hope she will be interested to advertise in my magazines. Wish me luck!