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Spent the past 3 hours exploring those new apps. Have no idea why I took such a long time. Nevertheless, I enjoyed it alot! :)

Day 9

A lot to say but feeling kinda lazy to type. All I can say is 有少少的思念。会向见到他咯。我不需要忍着，不要去联络他。

5th day

Well, since its gonna be 2am soon it should be "6th day" and not the '5th day". Haha.
Anyhow, i am so sleepy right now but I think I should at least jot down some thoughts before I crash.
Overall today is an interesting day. For one, its Friday and that means weekend is here ( although not much of a weekend given the fact that I will be busy for the next 2 days for my dance performance).
But still I'm gonna enjoy every bit of it. ;)
Secondly, 'he' texted me in gchat this morning! He initiated the chat! Means that he does think about me occasionally. It's a comforting thought. But when I first saw his message, I admit that I had mixed feelings. Partially excited and happy to hear from him again, another side is like..why is he contacting me wor..he was the one who wants the break and don't wanna see me. Regardless, we had a good conversation until he misinterpreted my tweets.
Best part is, he was upset over my tweet about 'missing my Aries'. Apparently he was jealous and felt the pinch. Honestly speaking, I really didn't expect him to actually read my tweets during this period. I thought be has given up on me. Or at least for the next 3 weeks. We started arguing that lor. Details I'm not gonna jot down coz it doesn't matter anymore. The day is over and most importantly we have resolved that particular matter. :)
3rd is I went for the dance rehearsals in Black Box Publika. This place is interesting. :)
Ok la, can't continue any longer. Eyes shutting down. Goodnight world~ :)

4th day

I kinda lost track today is which day. Haha. I have to look back at the previous post for the number. Anyway, in another 20 mins and it'll be 1am. I am so sleepy now. Not to mention tiring too. Of coz la tired.
Monday movie plus meet up with Chianyee.
Tuesday swimming with Chianyee and yum cha with her and Charissa.
Wednesday dance practice
Thursday swimming with Pei Wen and then a long dinner with her in a freezing cold A&W.
Friday I will have dance rehearsals.
Gosh! Can u see what a hectic week this is for me? But i like it~ (^__^)//
This week I had A&W TWICE! That's a lot of fattening food. Not good for my diet. Not to mention I had this awesome caramel cheese earlier during lunch from Nando's. It is delicious and I likes it~ wait..I love it~ <3
Today is the first time I am in 3K complex. The pool is somewhat alright but too shake for my taste. Maybe coz I am so used to the big and deep pool in Shah Alam.
Nice chatting session with pei wen. It's so nice to catch up again. ;)
Ok la, I can't take it anymore. Eyes shutting down.
Good night~:)

3rd Day

It's almost 12am now and I am suppose to sleep. But I wanna jot down some thoughts only hit the sack.
Let's see..today is overall a good day. Boss is in a good mood (good for the team). However, in the morning I feel sien sien dei. If you ask me why I feel that way, I can't tell you either coz I don't even know why myself. Maybe coz I'm sleepy hence feeling slightly lazy. Don't feel like doing anything. :p Bad jasmine. Haha.
Lunch with the MA men. Then after lunch things sorta picked up. More stuff to do and I was rushing out to meet a client in Tesco Selayang.
I'm so proud of myself today. Know why? Coz I didn't get lost on the way there~ (^__^)V
Was suppose to meet James after that (I wanna know how is he faring after encounter with such a traumatic incident). Too bad he wasn't free so meeting him up tomorrow instead.
Since I have nowhere to go, decide go go plaza damas and complete the slide show for dance as well as send out some emails.
I used my Starbucks Boracay tumbler and as I was looking at it, it brings back memories of the fun beachy times. Hehe.
I love being alone in a cafe. Sip my latte and just chill by myself.
Anyway, after that was dance and it was fun. Initially I was scared and nervous about my dance performance this coming Sunday but now, at this moment,I'm pretty excited and looking forward to it. Hehe. :)
As usual after dance I had dinner in A Minor Place with the dance mates aka Lindee, Wentz and our newest member Haruka~
Tiring day. I think I need to sleep now. Can hardly keep my eyes open. Night night~ ^__^

2nd day

Ok, now is already way past 12am and I am so sleepy. Today has been a day filled with stress and excitement. I was already tired before that hence I need to get some rest now.
I'm so proud of myself. I didn't message him today you know. ;)
I am not sure if I ever crossed his mind but does it really matter? Not gonna think about it. Just wanna enjoy my days. :)
I had a somewhat dispute with macha. He is upset I didn't message him to ask about his safety. I was offended I tell you. No wait, I am still offended. On Sunday we chat, then yesterday I think in Facebook. Today didn't la and now that fella emo pulak. Tak mau peduli la. Nanti I sakit hati jerr. So not worth it lor.
Alright, I can't talk much now. Really in need of sleep. Will update in the morning :)

1st day of the 3 weeks

I am supposedly to be working but boss just left so I can relax myself a little. I was discussing where to eat with my own team and as usual all bullied me to drive lor. But i don't mind. No parking space today and I double parked my car. I rather drive than received a summon again. We are now contemplating Food Foundry or Tappers or A&W. I told them I wanna have something nice as today I am in a sad mood. As usual they cracked up the sex jokes. (=.=) How to tell them I will be deprived of it wor. I am not like them who have wives or girlfriend (in my case a boyfriend of course). I also no longer have my so-called part-time-loverboy. :( 

I am seriously on my own now. I know there will be times where I will be tempted to message him but I must not. I must have some serious self control. I mean, c'mon..what is the point of messaging him? What do you have to talk to him? What do you wanna know about him? I think I am just beine like a controlling-freak who wants to know what is on his mind and is he thinking about me and also to comfort myself that he is not doing some stuff with some other girls (which is really none of my concern!). Lets be serious Jasmine, so what if you asked him, the replies could be unpleasant to your ears and you might be upset all over again for no reason and that time, you are really 'sendiri cari pasal'. So for what you wanna do something which you know you will end up being hurt? 

Moving on...I better plan my day ahead. Wanna get home earlier today so i can rest. Maybe if got time look for Chianyee. But at the same time, I don't feel like burdening her with my silly dramas. I am a big girl. I can handle it. :) 

I can't sleep

It's almost 3.30am in the morning yet I can't sleep. I was sleepy before that but right now I am not. Reason why is because Kelantan wanna take a break from us. Not too long but it's not short either. You don't have to take a guess for I will tell you. It is 3 weeks. 3 long weeks. I know time will pass by very fast but..to me it's not easy either. He is my good friend and we chat on a daily basis whether it is via gchat or whatsapp. Now, to not communicate with him will be awfully difficult but I must do it.
Silly me. As I am typing now I am tearing. Really feel like crying right now. I am very sad. It hurts. I wish I can do something to lessen the pain but I can't. So what I can do now is hope that time can lessen the pain.
I know what be proposed is a good idea. Have I not been suggesting that over and over again for the past 30 times? But to actually do it..is so much harder than I anticipated.
I wish I don't have to work later because I sure wont have the mood to work. I will be so sleepy....
A part of me is angry at him for imposing this upon us but another part, agrees the fact that he needs to do some soul searching. Tell you something, he has changed. He is no longer the sweet ol' friend I know. He is now irritated easily, agitated, frustrated easily and more often than not lose his temper at me. So..what I am trying to justify here is that this move could be the best for me and him.
Ok, I'm starting to feel slightly sleepy. Good for me. Sleep off the misery and hope that Monday will be a good day for me. :)

I am sorry

As my post title says- I am sorry. I truly am. I did not mean to hurt you but somehow it did. For me, when I hurt someone, the guilt will be eating up on me. I cannot help it. As silly as it sounds, I rather I am the one being hurt rather than the other way around. 

So this is what happened. I said something which somehow offended a friend. I believe this friend is more upset than offended lor. I read back the conversation which was transpired between us (gchat & what's app) and to be honest, I do not see which part of what I said is offending to the ears (or eyes in this case). Maybe this friend misunderstood my meaning I suppose. 

Anyway, I just feel crappy after that. No appetite to eat and feel so awful about it. Wanted to text and ask for forgiveness but at the same time I refuse to do that (a little egoistical I suppose) because I do not find myself wrong in my statements. But few hours of internal struggle I decided to text this friend. 30 mins has gone by but no response. I sure hope you will reply my friend. Because if you don't do that, I won't be able to sleep well tonight. 

Oh wait! i just received a text and yes! I have gotten my reply. Ok..messaged says "wasn't angry. Talk later after gym :)". This is a positive sign I hope. Ok, at least I don't feel so bad anymore 

So fast its wednesday already

Its Wednesday night and I want to watch the Spanish match...=( but my home dun have Astro. I thought of going to mamak to watch but a girl alone watching is so dangerous.

This morning I drove to Berjaya Times Square to meet the marketing manager of Papa Johns. Nice lady. I did some research on the roads in Google map but still I got lots. At least I managed to find my way although I am vy late. I mean...30 mins late for my appointment. Luckily she is ok with it. I like that lady. After that I drove back to office, and have lunch with Dominic since he say he wanna teman me. Oh ya..today I wore my new blue dress. I love it. It looks like a baby doll dress but at the same time, reminds me of the starry midnight sky. See adi also makes me happy. ^__^ Few colleagues praised me today although Vaijan comment my dresses are getting shorter or my legs are getting longer. haha. Paiseh leh..I know la that my dress is too short and its not like I have nice legs. haha. Anyway, at least I wore something which makes me feel good.

To continue my day, I went to Food Foundry to have mille crepe again. But this time I chose vanilla flavour. Really yummy. Then after the cake, I decided to have a proper meal so drove to another place and had 'chee cheong fun'. The taste so so lor. The place is at seksyen 17.

Afternoon I stayed in office and do proposals. Dunno why but the time past by so fast. The next thing I know its already 5.30pm. I drove to uncle's house in SS2 to see grandma and also to take the 'ba chang' from her. I only eat one kind of 'ba chang' and also the only ones that made by my grandma which is Nyonya Chang. Since its too rushing for me, I dun have the time to wait for granny to heat it up as I am rushing to seapark there to meet Dominic. Suddenly he is craving for nasi lemak. No doubt the nasi lemak at that place in Seapark is awesome. I told granny I will not have time for dinner but after I munched a few pieces of fried fishballs and fried tofu..I cannot resist the tempation and took a plate and filled it with rice and ikan bilis and fishballs. haha. Yummy betul. I was starving. Grandma so happy to see me eating her cooking.

After that about 6.30pm I meet up with Dominic and at that time I dun have the space in my stomach to contain the delicious nasi lemak (even though I really really want to have a plate of it. Yes, I do know that I am very greedy.=p)

We hangout till 7.45pm then I have to rush for the other round. I am meeting Angela and Emily in Pyramid. We decided on Kim Gary and guess what? I saw Angela had the Korean Noodles and I also want to have a taste of it so I ordered a bowl and I could not finish it. Waste food only. Not only that. I wasted my money too. Sigh...

Ok la..I will be heading to bed now coz I have to wake up at 6.30am. Promised granny I will there in SS2 to collect the ba chang by 7.30am.

Nite !

Tuesday then it will be Wednesday!

Yikes!! Its been so long since I last update. Ok, I shall do a quick and short one here.

Lets talk about my day. I wore this new floral printed dress with my new white cardigan and my new white heels. Feels so good. hehe. My good mood was increased thanks to the compliments received from my colleagues. All also puji me and make me feel so happy. A nice breakfast with my colleagues. Then after that I also had a fantastic lunch..a good choice. I want to eat 'lui cha' but luckily V Ming suggested to eat at Damansara Kim. I never heard of that place and now I know where. Shall visit there again another day. I had my favourite char siew fun!!! Yummy!! It taste so good!

After lunch, I feel sleepy as usual but work still gotta be done. Did some research on the net and then did cold calls to direct client. Speaking of which, tomorrow I gotta head to Papa Johns office in Berjaya Times Square at 11am! I dunno how to go to Times Square. I am such a sad case. Sheesh. I am meeting the makerting personnel for Papa Johns tomorrow. Hope everything goes well. Shall try Google maps 1st thing in the morning.

Anyways, after work about 6.30pm, went to 1 Utama with V Ming and Pei Wen. Oh my goodness. Its so freaking jam. Really trying my patience. Finally at 7.15pm I reached the destination ( V and Pei Wen left office at 5.30pm sharp so they did not face the jam). I am so relieved the moment I reach the car park of 1 Utama. We makan at Chilis and I had the salad la, fajitas and tortilla chips with Salsa. Yummy~ At the same time we also watched the football game..Slovakia vs New Zealand. Ok lor..not that exciting as the next match which is Cote d'Ivoire vs Portugal. Ronaldo is so leng cai. Last time he look so boy boy but now so bergaya adi. So man. My heart melts at the sight of him. *Jasmine sighing at the thought of that manly guy*. Now, this match is interesting lor...Cote damn aggresive wei. Portugal got skill. Not bad.

Because I watched it at Chilis so after the 1st half of the game, we have to ciao adi due to the fact that Chilis will close shop. I rushed back to Taipan and continue watching the game at mamak. I am the only girl watching alone lor..majority are guys. There was a couple there. Thats it. I feel so shy leh. Nevertheless, I need to know the results. Haha. I also dunno since when I am so into this football thingy.

Ok, its almost 1am adi. I shall head to bed and I promise I will update the rest of my days soon.

Thurday just come by like this

Wow~ So fast its Thursday already. Time really flies. Yes..I do realized that I have been mentioning this ALOT lately. Another tagline of mine is.."I am so tired". haha.

Before I start with my post, let me tell you that since last Thursday, I have take out my small bear bear and place it bec in the car (where it belong). Really lor, the bear is ever so comforting to me while I am driving. I should not be so stubborn and kept it in the cupboard just because HE gave it to me. See, now I have the bear again, I feel so much happier. heehee.

Okay, my day went by ok today. I know, I have not been updating my diary/blog lately. I shall do it over the weekend when I am more free. Now I shall just talk about my day. =)

Ok, I was busy chatting and then chat on the phone for more than 30 mins. haha. Now I am too lazy and tired to type. Maybe I shall continue it tomorrow. haha.

Nite nite!

Emo

I was feeling happy in the morning but right now..I am just feeling moody. Maybe I am tired that is why I feel like this. Am also listening to "Need you now" by Lady Antebellum. As I listen to it, I feel even more emo. Yes..while I am listening this..I will be lying if he did not cross my mind. I am suppose to meet him today but I cancelled it. Actually..I really wish to see him. I dunno what happen but right now I am thinking about him and missing him so much. Its one of those days I guess..I keep on having flashbacks. When will this stop? If I continue like this, how am I suppose to move on?

This morning I only told my cousin Ken that I am healing and feeling much better which I really did. I was not lying or faking it. But now..I am down down down. haha. "Jay Sean's "Down" as background music".=p Alright, jokes aside coz Seriousness is coming through. haha. I have no idea why I am being so lame now.

Back to the topic of the hour, the song is playing over and over again. Its as if I cannot get enough of it. I love the lyrics...despicting what I am feeling now (at some point).

Picture perfect memories scattered all around the floor

Reachin' for the phone 'cause I can't fight it anymore

And I wonder if I ever cross your mind

For me it happens all the time

It's a quarter after one, I'm all alone and I need you now

Said I wouldn't call but I lost all control and I need you now

And I don't know how I can do without I just need you now

Another shot of whiskey can't stop looking at the door

Wishing you'd come sweeping in the way you did before

And I wonder if I ever cross your mind

For me it happens all the time

It's a quarter after one, I'm a little drunk and I need you now

Said I wouldn't call but I lost all control and I need you now

And I don't know how I can do withoutI just need you nowwoah woaaah.

Guess I'd rather hurt than feel nothin' at all

It's a quarter after one I'm all alone and I need you now

And I said I wouldn't call but I'm a little drunk and I need you now

And I don't know how I can do without I just need you now

I just need you now (wait)Ooo, baby, I need you now

My favourite part of coz is the one that is highlighted in red. =) For me, memories of you crossing my mind happens all the time. I really need you now and always..

I know I might be hurting someone if the person knows about this. I just cannot help it. Its my emotions. Even though I am really sorry buy I cannot deny what I am feeling. Sigh..

It hurts to not being with you. I miss you and..I wish to see you. To hear your voice. To..be with you..Argh!!! I should not be feeling this nor should I be thinking about this..I am so looking down upon myself..Shame on you Jasmine Yeoh. There is this guy who likes you and wants to be with you. You should give him a chance..not dwelling on the past love.

Ok, I am going crazy. I am actually speaking to myself and giving advice also. Sigh..but I really dunno..I like this guy..nice to be with and fun to talk to but..I just cannot la..I dunno how..I still want 'him' in some ways...omg!!! Jasmine Yeoh is a stupid girl for thinking like this!

Alright..this lunacy ends here. I shall meet Aron and talk to him and hope to be clear headed. I must not allow myself to hurt this new guy for he is so sweet. Honestly..the pain is still here in my heart..I have not healed from the past. What did 'you' did to me that I cannot heal untill now...Sigh..

Wednesday is gone. 2 more days till weekend. Woo-hoo!

As usual, I am very sleepy and lazy right now. I read my previous posts and found that each post has the same opening "I am tired. I am sleepy. I am lazy". haha. This is getting repetitive.

Ok, lets start. My day was pretty ok. This morning could not decide what to wear. I looked at my wardrobe and found that I have nothing to wear. Yup, its one of those days. So..I was abit late to work. Luckily I arrived before my boss did. But still..I feel paiseh. Must wake up earlier from now on. I will not allow myself to snooze my alarm. =p (as if that is possible)

Anyway, I drove to Kota Damansara to meet a client. I tell you, the journey there is even longer than our acquaintance. I saw her for less than 10 mins while the driving journey takes up about 40 mins of my time. Aiyor..Later, I had lunch with 3 of my Guocera ex-colleagues- Angel, Wee and Swee Khim. We went to makan at 6 to 10. I had Fish & chips while they have nasi lemak.

After such a heavy carbo meal, I was so sleepy and lazy when bec in the office. I felt like a zombie. I cannot concentrate on what I was doing. Somehow..the time just past by without me realizing it. Its not like I did alot of things but somehow time just past by lidat.

I was suppose to meet Navina and Lay Sim and also Nicky for dinner today in SS15. Manatau at 5pm, my colleague say she cannot attend Tai Thong's dinner (client's dinner) so I am to attend it lor. Representing The Star mar. Sheesh..I have to call and cancelled my dinner plan. T_T Its so difficult to gather everyone to have a dinner and now have to call each one to tell them its off. Sigh..what to do. Furthermore, no one to accompany me. I ask a few of my colleagues but all also busy. Luckily for this sweet colleague of mine, she is willing to accompany me coz she says I look so kesian and indeed I am. *jasmine showing her face which has a natural kesian look on it*

We left office at about 6.45pm. It was so jam!!! I know I should biasa adi but it really get on my nerves. Reached the destination which is in Subang at about 7.40pm. Crazy! But then..I got chianyee and dominic to keep me occupied abit with their messages during the journey so its abt more bearable. While stuck in the jam, suddenly it rained! Heavily somemore. Oh my goodness. Its terrible. I miss my bear bear la. My hands felt so empty. Ok, i already decided. I shall dig the small bear out from my closet and place it bec in the car to keep me company. I will be fine with it. I already think it through and realized..even if I put it there in the car, its not a sign of weakness. It doesn't mean that I still cling on to my past love. Nope..its not. =)

Lets proceed to the dinner. Let me tell you..its FANTASTIC!!! Food and environment is awesome!!! Great! The emcees and singers are superb. Its so entertaining. I want to take pictures of each of the dishes I had but I was shy. You know la..I am representing my company wor so I must act maturely. Snapping pics of food is kinda childish. Haha. But its still sad case. Guess who I bump into there? My Uncle Tony and his wife. Goodness..what a small world. Rupanya he work under TT Resources too. Both of us are surprise to see each other. haha.

During the dinner, dominic keep me entertained by messaging me. He told me he will keep me company untill the dinner ends. By 10 stg pm, I ask him to go sleep lor but he said a promise is a promise hence he will accompany me till I reach home. Thats really sweet of him and thank goodness he did sms me throughout the whole nite. If not, I would have been quite bored. I mean..food and environment is great but then hor...no one to talk to. I am now wondering..are we both flirting with each other? I dunno la..Ok, I shall not think much into this because its pointless and waste of time. I should be thinking on..how to not miss lcw at all. haha.

I was in a good mood when I reach home at about 11pm. After a hot and relaxing bath, I dunno why but I was tempted to call him (who else). And guess what..I wasnt able to resist the temptation and I called him. We chat for about 35 mins. Wow~ I was very surprised. It was he who said he is tired then only we end the call. Actually..its..sorta nice to chat with him I guess. But hor..he sound really distant and cold..I know he is tired la but then..things already changed between us so..maybe he is scared that by talkin nicely to me, I will fall for him again or I will want to be with him again. Well..honestly...he dun have to worry about that. I will not do that anymore. I just want to be friends with him. Kesian that fella. Work is always so stressful. No wonder he is unhappy la. I wonder what can ever make him happy ar? That one he himself only knows. You know what..I still feel 'sum tung' for him. Wish there is some thing that I can do to cheer him up. Who say I have to be a gf then only can cheer another person up. As a friend cannot meh? ;)

Its nice to hear his voice albeit its cold and distance and also..can feel he is unwilling to talk to me. But then hor..knowing him..if he reli dun feel like talkin to me, he wud not have picked up the call in the 1st place. =) So Jasmine Yeoh, you have to work on this bad characteristic of yours which is..u r too sensitive and you over-think things. Small matter also you can think yang bukan-bukan. Remember that this is also one of the reason that lead you to break up. Must remember ya!!

Back then, I would have felt so hurt if he spoke to me lidat or if he wants to end the call but now..lets just say..I dun anymore. I see it now that..he is really tired hence dun feel like talking. Its not because he dun wan to talk to me but because he is not in the mood for anythin now. He just want to be alone in his own world. However, he did said something which is supposed to hurt my feelings. Last Sunday, I did asked if wanna meet up on Thursday for dinner. He said not sure but he will check on it. Just now I asked this question and he mentioned he will be busy with work. I said I can wait for him and guess what he replied.. He said " I dun feel like seeing you". Whoa~ *piang piang* I kena shoot by him man..so kesian. Nevermind lor. He dun wan to meet me..its ok geh although I feel slightly disappointed. Isit coz he scared that I will show tender feelings towards him? That I will declare my undying love to him? haha..oh my gosh..then I must clarify lor. Must convince him that it will not happen. Loving him..doesnt mean that I want to be with him. Thats what he has been trying to tell me for the past few months and now I am slowly getting there. Jiayou Jasmine Yeoh! ^__^ You can do it babe!! But still hor..feel hurt leh when somebody said it to your face that he/she dun wan to see you. Haih.

So tmr I dun have any plans..then after work I will just go home and relax..good also. I can finally go home and take a rest instead of rushing here and there like mad. haha. That lcw ar..say tired and wanna sleep but still continuing online and 'kau lui'. U see ar..he can comment on Agnes punya post but he never once commented on mine. Why ar? This guy is so ....ish!!! Nah..not pissed off. Dunno what to say. LOL. So I shall not say nor shall I think also. Waste of my time and energy. I shall use the time and energy to think of something more worthwhile. *winks*

Finally, I am off to bed. Kena harass by my friend dominic there. Saying if he feels tired at work tmr it will be all my fault. As if its my fault. Its not like he is staying online to accompany me. Nite nite the world!! May the world seems better when I open my eyes. ^_^

1st of June in the year of 2010

Wow~ Half a year has gone by. Today is the start of the 2nd half of the year. Lets just say the 1st half year is ..dramatic, emotional and..I will not trade anything for it. hehe. So much has happened for the past 6 months. So much memories...and I love every part of it. Even if those incidents that happened are bad or heart-wrenching.

I am so lazy to type out my thoughts right now. I just want to lie on the bed and laze around. haha. Ok, let me do this briefly.

Hmm..lets see. I shall start with..I miss my small bear in the car. Every morning while driving to work, I miss the feel of it on my hands. Today is the same as any other day. I wish I can hug my bear. Just now while driving back home, i miss it even more because its late at night and I tend to feel vulnerable when its late at night. I will feel much more comforted if I have something to hold. I am now contemplating should I put the bear back in my car? If I put, it will be like a sign of weakness for me coz I will depend on the bear emotionally in some way. In example, now I am trying to be brave, daring and independent. If get lost already or driving in the dark, I will pull myself together and drive myself to the destination. But if I have the bear with me, I will tend to hug it and be scared and..I will not be able to toughen myself up. Do you get what I mean? Well...if you dun then I also dun wan to further explain coz I am so dead lazy right now to eleaborate further. Hmm..Should I or should I not? Part of me wants to but another part of me..dun wan to admit defeat (as in I want to be independent). Ok, this I shall think further later.

Today my day was okay. Drove to media agencies and discuss some things with them regarding on ads. Good start of the day I would say. Then when I am back to office, its already 12 stg pm. Dominic ajak me to go makan so the 4 of us (me, Dominic, Jason and this new guy Wai Loon) went to eat ban mee. I had spinach ban mee. The taste ok la but I still dun feel full. Dunno why. Must be because I did not have breakfast earlier. Apparently this ban mee shop is very famous. Its in Seapark there.

After lunch I felt super lazy. But of coz must continue working lar. I did my work and the next thing I know, its already 5.30pm. Can the time past by any faster? As I am meeting Lydia (my childhood friend of 17 years) at 7.30pm in Jaya 1, I cannot leave office sharp at 5.30pm. I told Dominic this and he teman me to yum cha. So sweet~ hehe. Of coz I happy la. Got one cute guy to accompany me wor. Sumo..he has a nice smile and he makes me laugh. A nice companion to have I would say. Anyway, I was too hungry so I had an early dinner- sweet & sour chicken. Yummy. I was really starving at that time. We chat till about 7.10pm lidat then he went back home to eat while I go upstairs to my desk to pack my stuff. When I walk into the office,Vaijan was still there at her desk. She teased me, asking me "Whats between you and Dominic? I heard that you guys were having tea session together only". haha. Oh my goodness..I clarified that its nothing. Just 2 colleagues yum cha only. I dun wan people to start spreading rumours. Just because a single guy and single girl hang out doesnt mean they are and will be together right?

Tell you another coincident thing. While waiting for Dominic and the rest to come down to office lobby during lunch time, I bump into Pooi Yarn at lobby. Then during yum cha after work, I bump into her at the restaurant. haha. Very coincident right? I miss that girl. Tomorrow she will be on leave. Thursday I only go to her desk there to kacau her. heehee. Aron is off for the whole week so I will not be seeing him the entire week. Less people to kacau this week.

Back to my story, while I was about to turn off my pc. Agnes (LCW's ex) send me an online message and we start chattin online for a short while. Unable to talk much coz I really was rushing off to Jaya 1. We talk about the weather and then she ask me how is my life. I asked her to guess and she replied that I look great and life is good for me. haha. She said I am much happier. I asked her if it is so obvious. She said yup. =) I suppose..life is indeed good for me. Everything seems so much better after I let go of my stubborness. Less emotional too I would say. =) Good for you Jasmine Yeoh!! heehee.

To continue the events of my day, while on my way to Jaya 1, it is BLOODY jam!!! OMG!!! I can kill myself adi. What to do? It was raining heavily at about 4 stg pm thus caused massive jams in all areas. Really can vomit blood. End up I only meet and chat with Lydia and her boyfriend for 30 mins then I have to ciao. I reached there about 8pm and have to leave at 8.35pm. I had Hot Chocolate Strawberry while I was with her. Taste quite nice. Hot choc in a cold day. This is what I call life~ enjoyment~ heehee

Why I have to rush off because I am going to catch a 9pm movie at Tropicana City Mall with Dominic. He has the free tickets to watch "Marmaduke". My 1st time watchin movie with him...Should I feel anything? I can just imagine what LCW will ask at this moment.."So isit very nice to watch with your leng cai? Got hold hands onot? Never? Why wor? You can go hold his hands mar". LCW is always so cute and funny!! haha.

The movie was..lame. I will not pay money to watch it nor will I spend $$ on the DVD. No way man. Its funny at some part but its more towards lameness and the plot is so predictable.

After the movie I balik rumah. Before that, I felt hungry and told that to Dominic. I hope he will not feel I am a greedy pig. =p He said he can teman me makan if I want. I did thought about it but..I am scared I will get fat! haha..but if I eat with him, then can spend more time with him lor..I was contemplating then I made a decision. Go home. If its the old me, I would have come up with many excuses just to hang out with him just like how I came up with excuses to hang out with LCW in the past back in Digi days. Those days are gone. Even though I am indeed hungry and wish to spend more time with him, I want to go home. I need my rest. Not to mentioned that I gotta spend some time blogging my thoughts which will delay my sleepin time.

Nah..he is just a friend to me. Nothing more for now. Let the time tell on how things will turn out in future. For now, I just want to enjoy my life and be happy. Let nature takes its course. Besides that, I am not ready for anything yet. Heart broken once and its still healing. My heart unable to open up to anyone at this moment. How can I when I still think of LCW most of the time? When I accept a new guy in my life, I want to make sure that in my heart, there is only him and no one else. =)

Ok, finish typing adi. Now I gonna brush my teeth and head straight to bed. Tmr is a big day for me. Gonna meet client. Lets just hope she will be interested to advertise in my magazines. Wish me luck!

Monday ain't so blue

Lets see..this morning I went to an agency then after that went to uncle house and have lunch with grandma. Its so nice. I love grandma's cooking-even if its just mee + char siew. hehe. It still taste awesome.

After that I finish some paperwork and the next thing I know its already 4pm. I cannot go out to other agency because it has started to rain really heavily. Its horrible to be out on the roads at a time like this. Anyway, I curi-curi had a short tea break with my colleague and I had pao, curry puff and hot cup of over-sweet milo. haha. After that I continue with my work and the time just flew by. The next thing I know its already 5.30pm. One whole day just gone like that.

I drove home and suddenly thought of asking this person out. I was contemplating shud I or shud I not and I already know most likely the person will not have dinner with me. But then..i told myself.."why not? just asking only. no big deal". So i text the person and he really did replied he cannot make it tonight coz he has too much work to do. Hmm..somehow its what I predicted. Its funny how that..eventhough I already knew the answer, but I still want to do it or ask. Its as if I want to prove that I am right, what I assume or come to believe is true.

It is month end and I assume he will have tons of stuff to do. Suddenly in my mind, I thought of buying him food as I thought that he will stay back late in office. I already call myself foolish and dun do all this sort of nonsense and most probably he will be gone from office when I reach or maybe he will not want to see me. See! Even though I already predicted the outcome, I still want to go buy 'char siew fun' and drove to his office. When I reached, I tried to call but unable to reach his mobile. Maybe the place he is in has very weak signal. I called twice but still tak jadi so I text him. The ironic thing is the message got through. He replied that he has left his office 10 mins ago. I told him I bought him food and thought of passing it to him but...no reply from that guy.

Haha..I already know this will happen in the end so why am I still so stubborn and knock my head against the wall? I thought about it on the way to Chianyee house (I already told her in the afternoon that I will visit her after finish working. She is sick and I am worry about her). I sort of came up with a conclusion...I want to do this even though I already know the answer because..I want to hurt myself..I want to test myself..I want to know my limit..I want to make myself patah hati. True enough..even though I was disappointed that my plan did not work out accordingly but..I surprised myself in some way. I thought that I would be devastated and cry because I did not get to see him and my plan turn out the exact opposite but..I felt disappointed a lil and..relieved that somehow we did not meet each other. Deep down inside, I am not ready to meet him today..I dunno what to say to him nor do I know how to act around him..I mean..if we really did get to meet up then how? Can we talk? If yes what to talk? haha..i really dunno. I guess I am still am a chicken in some ways. I am scared to face the reality. I am scared to face him. I never thought the day will come where I will not dare to face him.

He must be really tired coz of the workload and I believe that he came home late yesterday. I know its none of my business yet..I still cannot help but care. Oh ya..before I forget. Let me tell you something, I told you earlier that I called him twice right when I reach but he did not pick up right? Well..after I sent the message telling him I bought char siew fun, he did not reply. 15 mins passed by and I decided to call him to clarify. I think his phone either no battery or the place no network at all coz the call unable to get through. I called twice/thrice and use my Maxis no. to call him to but still the same. My conclusion is..he reached home already and probably already knocked out on the sofa or bed and in addition, his phone battery is dead. Let see if my conclusion is correct onot (not that it matters anyway right?).

Anyway, I quickly text him that I called him just to explain buying the rice for him does not mean anything and hope he will not misunderstood my intention. I am so afraid that he will get angry at me for calling him so many times ( 5 times i suppose. Never keep track). I kena before from him that when he turn on his phone, he received about 10 miss calls and he was damn pissed at me and scolded me. That is why this time I am scared adi so I MUST text him to explain. I dun want history to repeat itself. haha. Kena marah once is enough. Lesson learnt! But the message did not get through so my conclusion that his hp is dead is most probably 80% correct. I just hope he will not misunderstood and get annoyed/frustrated with me. Thats all I ask.

You can call me foolish for doing this (buying him food and plan to surprise him) but I dun feel so lor. You see..this incident allows me to understand more about the current me - what I am feeling and thinking. Like I mentioned earlier, in the past I will feel heartache and disappointment and probably be moody the entire night and maybe the next day too but this time..just a twinge of disappointment then..I snap myself out from it. I did not feel moody the entire night. Probably just that 3-5 minutes only. haha. Apart from that, I also know that..what are my feelings towards this...erm..what is the appropriate word to use..?..issue? Ok, lets just use issue. I am not saying I have completely let go but I am not like last time already. Its not the fact that he isn't my bf adi hence I dun get angry or sad because he did not fulfill the obligation of a bf. Its definitely not that. =) I am very pleased with myself that..I am learning to let go..that..I will not be unhappy and release my emotions on people if I did not get things my way. You see, when bad things happened, something good always come out from it. In my case, the bad thing is my efforts are wasted because I did not get to see him and passed him the food, but the good thing is..I am healing day by day. I feel better as each day passed. That..even without him, I still able to live life to the fullest. I am happy to know this. The good thing that came out of it is ...I know myself better.

Yes, of course I still miss him even at this very moment but..doesn't mean that I will continue hoping to be with him again. He saw that love is not enough to sustain a relationship..that understanding also needed and I wasn't able to give him that in the past. Hence he just pull away from me. Its not his fault..its just a clash of characters between us. I was too blinded and naive back then that is why I wasn't able to see it. But now? I see it so much clearer. Let me say this again..my dearest, I love you and probably will always love you..but I see that we are unsuitable for each other. Walking in separate roads is probably the best (yet to be 1oo% sure so we shall just let time tell us). I will always be grateful to you. It is from you I learnt so much about everything - love, friendship, relationship, family and mostly..myself. I do miss you so much. I..wish we can be friends..I will still like it very much if you are part of my life in some way.

Ok, maybe this is gettin abit emo from the looks of it but I am NOT feeling emo at all. Looking at what I wrote..I am sure when I read this again few days later, I might probably laugh at myself for being so dramatic and emotional. haha.

Alright then, its 10.30pm. Time for bed~ Wait..i think I shall enjoy a movie 1st before I hit the sack. Oh..I am so hungry now..the yummy mango yoghurt is not enough..T-T I forgotten to have my dinner so just now at 9.30 I had yoghurt and thought it will sustain my hunget but manatau..1 hr later I am even more hungry. Where is my belt? It leaves me with no choice but to 'ikat perut' with my belt. haha.

A sudden thought as I was walking myself towards the fridge to try dig for some non-fattening food, in situation like this (LCW did not answer my calls or ignore me the whole night by also not replyin my msg), I would have been angry and end up fighting with him ..but that was all in the past. Aiyor..think bec I also feel silly. Its such a small matter only. Why la I want to make into a big issue and end up both of us fight? It is so unnecessary. Well..too late. Relationship ended adi..so make sure I do not repeat this in the future (which I am very sure I will not). (^__^)

Lazy Sunday

Its already Sunday. Can u believe how time flies? It was only Thursday night and poof! Now its Sunday 4pm. Wow..I just wish time can stop sometimes so that I get to enjoy my days. I have not been writing for the past few days and there are so much to catchup. Ok, I shall 1st start with Wednesday. Hmm..Wednesday come and go in a breeze. I was kinda busy. Have to meet a client in SS2. As I was driving back to office, I passed by my ex-company, Guocera and I cannot resist the tempation to pop in and say hi to them. As I parked my car and walked towards the lift, a feeling of nostalgia washed past over me. The entire place seems familiar yet foreign to me. Lets just say its a very different feeling compare to last time as I walked towards Guocera office. Everyone seems very happy to see me. I talked to Daniel and met Aunty Cathy, Sharel and Angel. Its really good to see them. Sharel is so happy that she gave me a hug while Angel looked so surprise. haha. Everyone welcome me with a smile. It really makes me happy. I do feel alot better after seeing them. I guess its natural when u meet old frenz or colleagues.

Anyhow, after work, i yum cha with Dominic and Jason. Its really nice to chat with them. I gave some advise to Jason on where to bring his wife to over the weekends. haha. As for Dominic, poor guy. He keep on kena teased by Jason and sometimes by me. What to do? I just cannot resist it. He is so cute! Furthermore he is born on the same day and same month as me. Except different year. I look at him and sees him as my cute brother. Someone like..Desmond. hehe.

After that I drove to SS2 coz I am meeting Lay Ping again. When I reached there and drive in circles over the place, I realised there is nothing to eat. I know..its SS2 and how isit possible there is nothing to eat? Dun ask me for I have no idea either. After that Lay Ping called and she suggested we head over to Empire in Subang and makan at Chili's. I thought of the salad and my mouth waters just by having a vision of it in my mind. Sadly..because 26th May 2010 is the opening day for Chili's in Empire, the place is fully packed. We have to wait at least 30 mins for our table. LP stated its not worth it so we head to O'Briens instead. Its yummy too. My 1st try at O' Briens. Always wanted to try but somehow did not get the chance. We hang out there till 10pm then LP gotta head to Asia Cafe coz she is meetin her cousin sis there. She did ask me to join and I dun mind that. Its just that..I am already very exhausted. I wish to go home and lie on my bed. Once I got home, dad was still awake and we chat for a while. While chattin, Dad opened a bottle of this German beer and we shared. Its so cooling and when I took a swig of it..AHHHH~ it is so refreshing. Its been a long long time since I last chat with my dad. Not that I dun want to but there dun seem to be the opportunity. Sometimes, its becoz my stepmum is around thus makes me difficult to chat with him, sometimes he is already asleep when I am back home. There are times when I dun have the mood or he doesn't seem to have the mood. So..this is a good opportunity and moment for me. =D

After the chat, I still dun feel like sleeping despite feelin tired, hence I turned on my laptop and watched "The Backup Plan". I love JLo. She is so gorgeous. I love her hair and her body. I watched it halfway then I cannot stand it anymore. The minute I turn off the light, I knocked out. haha. Oh ya..Wed morning I was suppose to belanja my colleagues makan breakfast but I couldnt get out from bed and the jam was horrible. So..its postpone till...i dunno when. haha. But I definitely will belanja them. Everyone I met who knows abt my confirmation congratulate me. It seriously warms my heart. =)

Ok..now I shall move on to Thurday. Lets see..I think I drove out to meet someone..who isit ar? I cannot remember...but afternoon after lunch I recalled I drove to Puchong to an agency. When I get back to office its already 6pm..I hang out in office and chat with Pei Wen and V Ming (used to be my eye candy but now..he is just a guy..no more eye candy. haha). We chat till about 7.30pm then I drove to Jaya Palace in Menara LYL (PJ) coz I am having family dinner at 8pm. Parents reached there before I did and they were the 1st ones to be there. Poor them..my uncle only arrived at 8.40pm. I know its very late. While waiting, my dad mentioned he is hungry to my stepmum so I asked for the menu. Dad seems reluctant to eat so I just told him I am hungry (in actual fact I am not at all. I am still quite full frm my late lunch). Anyhow, we orderd "char siew siew yuk" rice. It is so little yet it cost RM 15. Can u imagine that and its the cheapest in the menu. Anyway..dad took a few bites(as I predicted). At least it cure his hunger temporarily. Poor guy. I ordered so he can take some of it. My uncle, aunty and my cousin sis only arrived at about 8.35pm if I remember correctly. I left the dinner at 9.30pm and rushed off to Tropicana City Mall to watch "Prince of Persia" with Lay Ping and Jin. OMG!! I LOVE the movie alot. Yes, there are some parts which are draggy but overall its good. I din know Jake Gyllenhaal will be so good in the film. I am so 'lum' by him. He totally melts my heart. I do want to watch the movie for the 2nd time. There are some scenes where his gaze totally shoots right through my heart and I wish I am the leading lady. haha. The movie was from 10pm-12am. I am so happy that Lay Ping got the tickets!!! Yes!!! I simply cannot say how much I LOVE LOVE LOVE the movie. heehee. Prince Dastan, will u be mine? =p

By the time I reached home, its already 1 stg am. I slept and end up woke up at 2.45am and I couldn't sleep again. I tossed and turned on my bed but to no avail, I am still wide awake. By 3.30 am, I get my butt up from bed and wash my face then head over to my ex-company, Guocera. I am to meet up with my colleagues from Guocera at 4am and had McD breakfast. Its too early so I cannot eat much. Me and Angel shared the hotcakes. kinda yummy. Later that, we drove to Kajang to meet up with a colleague then from there we head over to Broga Hill. By the time we start climbing, its already 6.10 am and it is so dark. Luckily some of my ex-colleagues brought torch light. I had so much fun hiking. I would love to do this again another time. ^_^

To cut story short, by the time I reach my home its already 1.30pm and after I bath, I had my lunch then drove to Pyramid to meet a few of my secondary school frenz. Its so difficult to find parking and this stupid man stole my parking! I got down from my car and tell him that and I tell u..he was so rude. Sheesh! Horrible person without any manners!!! Think he looks so good and thinks his car is so great! *Jasmine shows a vomit face*

I hangout with my friends from SMK Taman Petaling like Pei Yee, Hui Yin, Yen Ni and Pei Ying. Pei Ying and Yen Ni I have not seen them in years. Definitely more than 3 years. Its really good to see them again. We had our meals in Kim Gary for I have a sudden craving for French Toast! At about 8.30pm, I drove to Careen's house to pick her up and we take off to TTDI. We are to meet Eleanor, Eunice and Aron at Bamboo 9 in TTDI Plaza. The occasion is to celebrate Eleanor's birthday. I was so tired. But if Eleanor is happy then I am ok. I appreciate Aron and Eunice for coming. Thank goodness for them. If not the gathering tak jadi. Careen cabut off at about 11pm coz she is meeting another friend. But..i know she came because of me. I love you guys. =)

When I reach home, its already almost 3am. Wow~ can u believe that I have not slept in 24 hours time? Seriously..I was gonna collapse adi. I thought that I will sleep the whole mornin and afternoon away as I was so dead tired. In the end, I only slept for 9 hrs and I couldn't continue sleeping already. That is so sad because I still feel tired and want to rest. I had my fav breakfast which is cereal + fresh milk. Then watch some TVB series then Chianyee text me if I can accompany her to cut short her hair. Well..I already guess why she wants to do that. But...sigh..it hurts me to see her sad. Anyway, I am suppose to pick up my friend Lay Sim from her house at 5.30pm because we will be attending Navina's engagement party at her house in Kota Kemuning. When me and Chianyee reached the saloon, its already 4pm. After everythin settled its already near to 6pm. I did text Lay Sim that I will pick her up at a later time at about 6.30pm. When I drop CY off at her house, I ask her if she is ok..if she knows what she wants because its time to stop being miserable. Its been too long and she need to put a fullstop on it. I told her that no matter what I will stand by her side supporting her but she needs to know what she really wants and make herself happy. Suddenly she hug me and she sobbed her heart out. Sigh..I also cried because it really pains me to see her like this and..I understand her feeling..I was in that shoes too. You will feel like the world has lost its colour and meaning..that u just dunno how to move on..I told her lor that...time will really cure all heartache. I still miss LCW and still love him but..life has got to move on. I cannot hold on to the past because I will be stuck in the same place while he move on. I was very honest with her and hope I did not hurt her feelings but I gotta be frank with her. All along I have been sugar coating my words towards this love issue of hers and I just dun wan to continue that anymore. By the way, did I mention I had body ache all over? haha.

I was so late and thank goodness Lay Sim was not angry at me for being super late. Dad lectured me about punctuality. Oops! When we drove to Navina house, its already 7pm. Yikes! And the ceremony is startin at that particular time!!! Luckily..when we reach it just got started so the both of us did not miss much. Seeing her in a saree looking so beautiful and serene makes me feel...nostalgic. I have known her since I was 14 years old and now..she is getting married. Seeing her so happy makes me happy too. After the party, me and Lay Sim stayed back and helped her get out from the saree and the ornaments from head to toe. Later, we lie on the bed and chit chat till 1 stg in the morning. Its so good to catchup with the both of them.

Its been a year since I last saw Lay Sim coz she is studying in Auzzie and she is back in M'sia for 2 weeks only and then she will be flying off again. So fast..You know, I made a friend in the party. He is a friend of Shashi (Navina's fiance) and he is also single. When Navina found out, she keep on telling him that I am SINGLE. She urged him to exchange contact numbers with me. OMG!!! I was so shy..I mean..I am not desperate to know the guy even though he is a good catch I suppose.. a lawyer who has his own firm and drove a fancy car. But the thing is..I am not ready for love now. I am still healing from my past love and also, I am NOT desperate ok!! haha. Navina just wants me to be happy so she will try to matchmake me whenever she can. So sweet and kind. haha. I wanted to tell her that I can take care of myself but..I dun want to hurt her feelings by saying that. =)

Ok, we shall proceed to Sunday. Yay yay. After finished with Sunday, I can go to bed so I shall try to make this quick. This morning..I woke up at 10am and I drove to Pyramid (yes, again). Why? Coz i want to be there before the crowd invade the whole place. I already had a horrible experience finding parking on Friday and I have no intention of repeating the same old scenario. Its too irritating and frustrating. I went there to walk around and also, for the 1st time, I tried waxing. Just my legs only but the sales girl there continuosly persuading me to try brazillian wax. Nuh-uh! No way man..at least not now. haha. The experience was short and brief. Its not really painful (coz its only on the legs) but..feels abit shy and weird. haha. Its a nice experience I would say. heehee.

Later that, I went back home and had my bruch. Yup, cereal again. Then i went to HANDWASH my clothes (imagine the 1-week pile!) and later that wash and vacuum my car. I feel so much better after I had done the chores. While waiting for my clothes to dry, I watched DVD. Oh yar, today I was suppose to meet up with someone but end up that person got things to do so postponed to next week. This person already has a bad experience with me. He thought that I would be mad and sort of scold him for delaying the meet up. haha. Thinking back, I do will feel that but now..I dun. Of coz I will feel disappointed or abit unhappy but..there must be a reason why ur friend postpone ur meetup or unable to make it. I guess..u can say I have learn to be more understanding than I was. Bravo Jas. Keep it up. Like I said in previous post, everyday is a learning process for me. ^__^

Since I am free for the entire afternoon and evening, I decide to visit my granny. My cute baby cousins are there and they are so CUTE!!! Love them to bits!! I had a wonderful time playing with them. The sight of them never fails to bring a smile to my face. Ok..this is how my days has been. I am sure you will be thinking eventful right? I have no idea why. Its not like I have lots of frenz..but somehow I am alwaz so busy. See..how to fit my bf in? haha. Well..I will only figure that out when I have one. Now..all I want to do is go to my bed and relax. haha.

Monday, here I come!!!

Last Tuesday of the Month

This morning started ain't so good. I had nightmares again. This time..someone/something suddenly turn into an ape and it start to attack this girl (I am viewing the whole scenario as a 3rd party but then..whatever the girl is feeling I felt it too). The girl ran and ran and I feel so 'gan jeong' for her too!!! I am so scared the ape will catch her. Suddenly..she just cannot run anymore and the ape has got hold of her. Just as he was about to bite/eat the girl, suddenly a gun shot and when turn around, there was this guy who was holding the rifle and aiming at the ape. When the ape fell on the ground, I just jolt awake. Man..this is so drama!!! How am I to sleep peacefully if I have dreams like this?

That is why when I was awake, I dun feel good inside out. A depressed and weary feeling washed over me. I feel so..energy-less (is there even such a word?). Anyway..driving to work is quite smooth today. If only traffic was like today all the time.

Morning and afternoon was busy. I had to do a report on Harian Metro, Kosmo, Berita Minggu, Mingguan Harian and Sinar Berita or stg lidat. Wow~ Spend the entire morning and afternoon doing that. Its for the agency meeting which was held at 4.30 pm.

While I was doing the research, an ex-colleague from Guocera , Wee sms me and ask me for lunch. I suggested tomorrow as I was busy with the research. She said tmr cannot so we met up for lunch on today instead. Its a lucky thing we did coz I felt so much better after seeing her and Swee Khim. I had 'lui cha' in Chow Yang. How i miss the place. I always have mamak food till I am quite tired of it already. We did not chat much but still managed to catch up abit. Its really good to see them. Both of them compliment me that I look prettier and happier, thus leaving Guocera is a wise choice. Haha. They are being too kind. These 2 ppl are 2 of my fav ppl in the company who are always there to advise and encourage me. =)

After lunch, me head back to the library and continue to do the research. My goodness, I did not know it will take so much of my time. Anyways, meeting come and go and guess what. I received my CONFIRMATION LETTER today!!!! Yay!!! I am so happy!!!! ^__^ I am officially a permanent staff!!! haha. Somemore the bosses are really nice and said such sweet things. Aww~ I can apply and plan my leave!!

I was thinking of heading back home and spend some personal time alone in my room with my range of DVDs and just...relax. But during the meeting, Lay Ping messaged me asking me if we wanna do dinner? Before this she told me she is meeting an old friend so I was surprised when she texted me this question. End up, a last minute plan was formed between us. After much thought and discussion, we finally end up at SS2 Murnis. At 1st I want to have stg healthy and non oily coz I am feeling so fat (and indeed I am getting fatter). Manatau my mind suddenly pop the image of Roti Hawaii and I was like.."I want to eat that!!". When I reached the restaurant, I saw naan and I suddenly craved for cheese naan. Gone case la..My diet is completely off the track!! I ordered this ice blended honeydew + cheese naan and Lay Ping ordered Mee Raja and Roti Hawaii (which we shared but I think I ate a bigger portion. =p). Its so delicious. Yummy~

After that, because of the restaurant being too over-crowded, we head over to Starbucks and sat there chattin from 8.15pm till 11.45pm. Impressive right? Lots of good laughs and heart-to-heart talk involved. Its really one of those great nights that leave u feeling good when you say goodbye to each other. =)

Ok, its already 1.25am and I need to sleep coz I have to wake up earlier and reach office by 8.30am. Why? Coz I promise to belanja my colleagues breakfast as I am confirmed! hehe.

Good night!

Beating the Monday Blue by wearing BLUE

Monday has come and almost gone for me. Today was ...sort of a nice day but towards the end of the day, something happened at work which saddens me. I screwed up. Not really big but still big in my opinion. That I shall talk about it later. Now I dun have the mood to talk about it. Or at least..I am quite lazy to type it out. Kinda a long story.

The whole day past by quite fast. After work, I went to meet up with Jin and Lay Ping in 1 Utama. I had loads of fun chattin with them =) I am feelin much happier just by walking around the mall and also meeting them.

As I was driving away from 1 Utama parking lot, I pass by the new wing's entrance. It brings back memories where lcw picked me and Chianyee up from there after we return from our Genting trip and he drove Chianyee back home. He was so sweet. Before that we had an argument/misunderstanding. Sigh..everything was so sweet back then. I dun wan to elaborate. I just want to write out this point so that when I read back this diary of mine, it will reminded me of this beautiful memory and..I want to always remember it. Eventhough things has ended between us but what we had is undeniably special to me. .

Alright now, I am really exhausted as usual. Tmr nite I shall return home earlier and write more. good nite!! Please forgive my post for being so short and stiff. I know what I am writing is like..writing in point forms. haha

Weekend is over~

Its Sunday night and its near to 12 am. My weekend is over...so fast. I wish a day has more hours.

This morning when I wake up, its already 10 stg. Yeap..I had another weird dream. I shall just ignore it. When will I ever have a peaceful nite's sleep? When I found inner peace within me? haha. At about 11am, me pick Chianyee up and we went to 天后宫 (Tian Hou Temple). I got lost abit but luckily in the end found our way. I really should familiarise myself with KL roads. At 1 stg pm, both of us reached home. Its time to do my laundry. I have no choice but to handwash my 1-weeks's clothes and its kinda time consuming. Wish I have a washing machine. By the time I finish washing and hanging the clothes out to dry, its already 2.15pm. I am so late for I have to be at Istana Budaya by 3pm to watch "West Side Strory Broadway Musical". I reached that place at 3.10pm..=( I got lost while driving there and let me tell you, I drove like a mad woman on the road.

The musical was ok. At some parts I find it boring. I know the story is similiar to Romeo and Juliet so..I already expect a tragic ending. I went to watch it alone. Why no partner to watch with u ask me? Because I only have 1 free ticket and I dun mind watching it alone. =) Its nothing to be sad about.

After the show, which ends about 5.30pm, I drove over to mum' house and yup, I got lost again. Pass by so many tolls. Sigh..spend so much money on toll today. I really no eyes to see. I dun even dare to calculate how much I already spent on toll the entire day. Definitely more than RM 10. Sigh.

Due to the fact that I was rushing here and there and not forgetting the HEAT, I had a headache when I reached Istana Budaya and it did not go away untill this moment. I am going to sleep it off. Tomorrow is Monday and the beginning of another week. =)

Me shall watched "Backup Plan". J Lo looks gorgeous in it.

Good nite!